KSena's Journal

We had a little birthday party for Peting's aunt's husband. And, of course, his cousin was there. She's gotten diabetes not that long ago, and of course has had to stop eat anything sweet. And she has done really well with that, she’s even stopped eating nearly all carbohydrates! So, she’s being good, which keeps her diabetes under control! So yay!

But, and this is what bothers me somewhat. As soon as we meet up with Peting’s relatives it’s all talk about sugar and carbs and how bad it is, but still there’s carb and sugar in the birthday food. So I eat it, but feel scrutinized and commented on the whole time, even if they don’t say it to me. They just discuss how bad it is with carbs and sugar.

It just makes me feel quite uncomfortable. And when I hinted at it, my MIL just said that I’m the healthy one since I can eat it without being sick. Really? I don’t feel healthy or even comfortable when they talk about it every time we meet up all of us. :-/

I hope it won’t be like that on Saturday when we celebrate Peting's birthday. It’ll be my brother there to and his kids, so I hope that will distract from this constant subject. *sigh*

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Ugh, ugh... Ears are still fucked up. Been to the doctors today, and was told I have liquid behind my eardrums. Yeah, I was at the nurses office/care center and had a doctor check them.

So now I have a special nasal drop/spray to take twice a day. I just hope it works. I can't really be away from work much longer... :-/ Mostly because I know how much stuff I have to do once I get back there.

Was supposed to be on the radio for a discussion-show, but since I can't hear... It's a bit hard to follow a discussion then. Gladly the show host managed to find someone else that could take my place. Phew.

Wednesday I have a class after work, so I kinda have to get back to it next week. It's at the university, so... Yeah.

My MIL called tonight all worried and asked why I hadn't been told about the trick where you hold your nose and blow, making the air go towards your ears instead of out your nose (since you hold it). That should pop the ears. But I've tried this. Several times. And it just doesn't work! It's the most common trick to use when these things happen. Apparently it has happened plenty times to my MIL. First time for me. I really hope it won't return...

Right now I mostly try to take it easy... and feel horrible that I can't hear what my kid is telling me... :-(

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I don’t even know where to start. Safe to say… It’s the end of this school term. So everything is just… Insane! Meaning I’m constantly stressed the hell out. :-/

Had a meeting with my boss not that long ago, and I told her it doesn’t feel like I’m doing a good job this school term. Feels like I’m constantly failing. I want to do so much… But I feel as if I’m not enough. That I’d be able to do so much more if only…. :-P

My boss, bless her, bascilly told me I’m idiot but in much nicer terms when she came to visit me. I think she noticed that I’d probably had had it by now.

And I have. Because end of school term does not mean less work for me. Oh no! Then it’s time for…

The summer reading program!!!!

*dies* *SIGH* And in my school and the schools around here it’s called The Summerbookclub! Meaning, the kids have to read six books, report them in in a special folder, and when the school starts again after summer, they get a little FIKA party with something sweet to eat and a gift (usually book or something book-related).

All well and good. It’s just that all of that needs to be prepared. The folders need to be ordered. All of that. Preferabley some time ahead. That hasn’t happened this year. This year everything is planned and ordred with VERY little time to spare. No time to spare, to be honest. :-P

And it pisses me the fuck off. I don’t feel that good when such things happen. I need things to be preplanned before hand. So I know I have what I need before I present the whole thing for the kids at the school. This? Is to freaking stressful.

And it’s all well and good on my colleagues schools. They only have kids from the age if six to the age of twelve. I have about twice the amount of kids/teens at my school and they run from the age of six to the age of 15… A WEEE bit of difference there. :-P

Ugh. :-P

Anyone tells me it is a relaxed job to work as a school-librarian I’m going to punch in the face!

And to top it off, I found out about the bomb at the Ariana Grande concert in Manchester, UK. WTH?!?!?! I just… I got no words for that.

So if you follow me elsewhere, you have to excuse my low mood these days. Work and world, I tell you…

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