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KSena

July 2018

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This is KSena

Usually a friendly sort. Be nice to me, and I am nice to you. Here I ramble on about me, life, work and fandoms. I am a fan of Robin of Sherwood, Xena: Warrior Princess, Buffy: the Vampire Slayer, Pirates of the Caribbean, Tokio Hotel and Sons of Anarchy. I don't apologize for anything I write here. This is my mind. And you entered it. Welcome.

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Gawd, even though I've wanted to update her for ever, but either I haven't had the energy or I haven't known how to start.

Anyway, if you want a current update on what is going on in my life, you can always check my Instagram at anytime! :-) I'm really active there. It has ended up my favorite social media.

OK, so as updates go. Let's start with Midsummer. If you've read my thoughts for a while, you'll know I always end up with some serious Midsummer-blues. Since my dear Mr P / [profile] peting77 always go to his so called friend a bit further north in Sweden. Anyway, since he got divorced since last year, he stopped calling Mr P totally (he's called less and less over the years), and so Mr P was with us this year! AMAZING! And helped somewhat with my Midsummer blues. :-)

So we ended up going to moms all of us, which was nice since mom had promised to with her gentleman caller this year. So we had moms house to ourselves. Felt weird, but was OK. :-) We went to a traditional midsummer celebration with all the trimmings, then we went to a neighbouring city I used to go to during Midsummer. But things do change in 30 or so years. So everything was closed. X-D Back to mom's house for some traditional midsummer food. *LOL*

We spent a couple of more days at moms just being lazy and enjoying my moms company when she came back from her gentleman caller. Was really nice, and I hope we can do it again next year!

So that was Midsummer, for once a good experience! Very happy about that!

The weekend after Midsummer the Fallout LARP I go to each summer. Usually it's arranged mid to end of July but this year it ended up being arranged end of June! Which surprised me. But I still got the go ahead from Mr P that it was OK, so off I went.

Counting on my fingers I figured out it was the 9th year this year! 9 YEARS!!! Insane! And I've played the same character each year!!!

Preavious years a lot has happened to her story wise, but not this year. Which was FINE! You can wish for an active or inactive plot when you sign up, and previous years I've always wished for an active one, which means a lot of actions and stuff, but this year I asked for an inactive plot since I just wanted to enjoy myself.

And I succeded in my goal!

My character Katya Hollander still has the trading post in the village / settlement of Bockaby, making her one of the wealthiest once. Although this year I kept the prices pretty low and I was open for haggling, just for fun. :-)

Worked great! I needed a lot of temporary guards for the trading post, since for whatever reason I always get a tiny bladder on that LARP. X-D Which is good, since that means I get caps (in game money) going in the LARP economy.

Other than that I mostly sat and talked to the mom in the family that always brings her kids there. She's done that every year, which I wouldn't do with Alexandra. Alexandra doesn't like big bangs or doesn't quite get this with pretending to be someone else. Not yet at least. If she wants to when she's older, she can come. :-)

These kids though have always acted very oddly, and even though the older son is way past diaper age, still wears diapers. None of them talk but makes... noises.

This year I had some of Alexandras old baby toys with me, and those kids LOVED them, so they hung out a lot at the trading post.

And I found out those two kids have an extremly rare genetic condition that effects the brain. And said condition will eventually kill them, quite early. Three kids, the two oldest have this condition. Since the parents have a latent gene that combined will give this. Talk about unluck! So their youngest they did an IVF with donated sperm, and that little girl is perfectly normal.

Sad, right? But they still try to give the best to said kids, hence they take them with them everywhere, and they behaved really well, despite not being able to talk.

I gave all off Alexandras baby toys to them kids when I packed up after the LARP. I think them kids desvere it, and it made them happy. :-)

Hopefully all three of them will come next year to. Fingers crossed.

Right, this is long enough. I'll make another post about my birthday and our little vacation-trip to Kolmården. :-)

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Sometimes... sometimes you need to take a bit of a step back, right? I did that the other day on social media. On LJ and DW I've done several clean ups, so it wasn't needed here. But on Twitter and Instagram, it was getting a bit ridiculous. I was following way to many accounts/people, so I had to do a serious clean up.

I mean, online stuff and social media should be for fun, right? Well, combined with the stress of work and everything else, it just added to the stress. So hence the clean up.

Work is really stressful at the end of the school term. Last day of school is on the 15th of June next week. And this whole month or a bit more actually, has been SO hectic with everything that I need to do with the kids and teens at the school. Classes I need to hold and information I need to spread. I have made it, if just, but I did. I am getting WAY way better at planning than I was when I started this work. And I feel more confidant in my role as a school librarian to, which I think has a thing to do with it to. I dare more to demand things and push more for activities I need to do. You know?

It helps, of course, that I've been allowed to go to TWO educations on the University here that my employment payed for. And it was during working hours (sort of), so that was cool!

At home it's been a bit much to, so this term I have gone down to work 7 hours a day instead of 8. It has done WONDERS for both me and Alexandra to be honest. It's just one hour a day, so it doesn't effect my paycheck that much, but it does make sure I feel less stressed and less guilty each day. :-) Win-win!

Also, it's that time of year to. The dreaded Midsummer time.

For those that have been around a while, I dread Midsummer each year. Last time I was so down I am sure I showed quite a few signs of depression.

My beloved Mr P, or Peting, has a friend who USED TO BE his best friend that he goes to visit during Midsummer each year. To him and his friend Midsummer is no big deal. It's just a few days extra off work and a reason to have a small party. So that's what they've been doing ever since I got to know them. Even after he got married and moved 8 hours away from here.

His wife was... special to say the least. I don't use the word lightly, but hysteric is a word that would actually fit her. I've visited there a few times. Last time was when Alexandra was a year. I was not doing good during that visit, let me tell you. Even worse than last year. After that, Mr P went all by himself.

But that meant, he wasn't with us. No big deal, to him. But big deal to me. Because when I grew up Midsummer was a family thing. My aunt has always and still do have this HUGE Midsummer Party the day before Midsummer Eve. Where ALL of my huge crazy extended family go to. These days were about 25-30 people there. (Including spouses and kids.) And when I grew up on Midsummer Eve, we had a smaller gathering at home. And on Midsummer Day the family went to a traditional feast area to dance and hang out.

All family things. Mr P didn't do anything like that, and I guess is not used to it. But him not being with us has effected Midsummer badly for me.

This year though, his friend, who really hasn't acted like a friend ever since he got married to that woman all those years ago, hasn't talked to him all this year. Last year I think he called twice. On his own birthday and then once more to invite Mr P to come for Midsummer. This year he did neither. Probably since he's gotten divorced and has no area to be at for any Midsummer party.

I'm sad for Mr P, he has last what he thought was his best friend. I can't help but feel happy though, because that means he'll be spending time with us. And I need that, I think. I need that very much.

We've been together since 2003 now. And sure, we've had our ups and downs. None of us are perfect. But dammit, he is mine and I am his. And want to be with him and kiddo when there's holidays and shit.

*sigh*

I guess some of the Midsummer blues has set in. :-P Even if I do look forward to it to. I'll get to visit mom, spend some really good time with her, and I do svery much look forward to that. She has retired now, 65 years old, and has taken on the project of clearing out stuff from her house. I'm actually curious to so what she's done!

Anyhow. Over and out! We'll see when I poke my head in here again. :-) Hopefully it won't take quite as long until next time. I do feel better after writing this!

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ast week at work was SO MUCH FUN! A bit confusing and exhausting, but SO MUCH FUN!

Because I went on a Halloween ghastly ghost tour! :-D And did haunted walks in four libraries last week. Amazingly fun to get to scare kids for a full week. ;-)

Last year I did it the first time, since we didn't know what else we should do for Halloween... So I suggested I'd spook myself up and haunt the basement. I did. And it was a success! Although, I di believe my colleagues were the most afraid of me. *LOL*

So, fast forward to... a couple of months ago, and one of them collegaues where at a meeting and told other librarians about it, and well... the next day my workmail exploded. *LOL* And I was booked for every day of last week which is the only week during the autumn when the kids and teens are off school for a week. And so it was no problems for me to do other things instead of being at the school-library.

First night, Monday this week, was NUTS! Mostly older teens, between 12-15 or 16. And SO MANY! Around 60-80, the responsible librarian though! They'd turned a conferense room upside down, as if a poltergeist had been in there, and man... I did the worst with that! Most of the kids and teens in there screamed and giggled and laughed. Unfortunally a few boys wanted to be tough and tried to pick up a chair and throw at me, but apart from that: FUN!

Then Tuesday, my 'home-library' apart from my school-library, so they got the first shot at picking day. Worked GREAT! Since the room I was in is a mini-movietheatre. All with black walls and red velvet on the chairs. Perfect to be a ghost in. *lol* Again, great success! Around 30 kids and teens came, a little bit younger then the day previous. And, about three times as many as last year when I did it the first time here. So, again a great success!

I was supposed to be at another library on Wedneysdays, but they had to cancel. A shame, but I did get a lot done at my school-library, so hey! Not complaining about that!

During Thursday I was actually haunting during the morning in a BIG room! Kids around... 7-9 year olds came over. The library was doing a collaboration with a day care center, so that was pretty awesome! And, to be honest, these kids? They were the bravest! I seriously looked creepy, and by the end of it they felt sorry for the ghost (= me) and gave me hugs to make me a happier ghost. SO CUTE! The ones that were the most scared were the adults that came with them. :-)

Friday I got the latest night... Said library is a bit on the countryside, so a bit more family-oriented naturally, somehow. Which was not very good for this night, since there were a few families there with kids that were far far to small for a Halloween haunting, so I had to tone it down as much as I could. There were a few of the bigger kids 8-10 year olds that ended up being a bit braver at the end of the evening though, and ALMOST dared to give me a hug. :-)

But all in all? This week? A HUGS success! And I'm convinced I'll end up doing this again next year. The same libraries? Time will tell. And if so? First come, first serve. :-) Can't wait to see what comes off it. And I hope they'll let me know what they thought of my little ghost-performance. :-)

Oh, and here's a photo of my four ghost-looks this week!


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I must say I have a really cool mother in law. Well, she's not officially that yet, but she still in is in all practicallity. :-)

My LJ is unlocked and anyone who wants to can read it. So does my mother in law. As I found out today, because she wanted to give me praise for my post about the # MeToo hashtag and my reactions to it.

And she totally agreed! We're both annoyed at all the hate this movement has brought. She listens to the radio a lot and had heard about an older gentleman who didn't dare talking to women anymore, afraid they'd take that wrongly. And I see that online to! Young and old.

I mean, yeah. There's a shit-ton of asshole men. As we all know. But, to use a phrase that is almost forbidden today, not all men are assholes!!! Nor are they rapists! But the # metoo hashtag pretty much says that 'all women have had this experience', which isn't true, and that 'all men are rapists and abusers', which isn't true either!

Another friend of mine made a post on instagram, it was a screenshot from Facebook, where a protest in Stockholm was going to be held. I'm going to translate it straight up.

Comrades in arms!

WE HAVE OUR PERMISSION!

The police has just allowed us our permit for demonstration! There's nothing that can stop us now! ❤
In other words, on Sunday it will happen. 2pm on the Main Square.
The demostration march against sexual molestation, against women, trans-people, none-binary and others who can't even walk the streets, in school, to work, to the pub, to the bus, at home without their bodies being abused by cismen.
We all know it - there's a change in the air. And the chagne must happen and it's happening NOW.
We're not going to be silent any longer.
Cismen: It's time to sit down and listen.
Women, trans-people, none-binary and others: It's time to rally, to support each other, to share your story if you wish.
But above all. It's time to be seen.


(My friends instagram post, in swedish, is HERE.)

I'm not the only one who see the hate there, right? And, like my friend said, for FUCKS SAKE! STOP THE HATE! Seriously. It's not helping anyone. :-/

And I'm asked why I don't like calling myself a feminist. I prefer humanist, to be honest. Equality in all things for everyone. *sigh*

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But apart from that, things goes quite well... It's just so damn cold and the winds really bite into you. Not my idea of fun, I can't say.

Yeah, I'm all outside nearly every day now. I make up reasons to get out and fix things, because I'm not a person who enjoys going out for a walk... I think that's boring and blah... So, errands everyday.

I've also sold a bunch of stuff on Tradera (swedish Ebay) for over 200 dollars. o.O It was my old medieval clothes that I sold, all in real wool and real linnen. And sewn by me. So I put it for auction, for less than the material was worth I think. And then I still pulled in that much! Totally impressed!

So currently my little walks is to send that stuff off. And since not everyone pays at the same time, it creates a walk for me everyday. :-)

When I'm at home, I sit mostly on the computer. I've ended up totally obsessed with YouTube. There's a few YouTuber that I follow, and man... I really love watching their stuff! There's some really fun people out there, and some are really talented to! :-D

I also spend a TON of time on Twitter, Plurk and Instagram.

Oh, and to keep warm me and my best friend have joined in all other fans of the company Kränku. For serious, they make the best tea you can get your hands on in Sweden! o.O And the company has now turned 40 years! So every month they have a monthly tea this whole year! :-D So I'm gonna drown in tea, but I don't even care. :-D

It's hard to understand that I've been on sick leave this long... My poor replacement is not having an easy time btw. He is a really sweet and kind guy. REALLY! He really really is. Problem though. You gotta have some balls and be a bit tough on that school, or the kids will run right over you. They're a bit like animals that way. They see one itty bitty weakness... They attack and will exploit that weakness like hell! Not physically, obviously, but mentally. So yeah... And since he to is an previously bullied kid, he has a bit of troubles with pushing back against that. I've gotten a bit further in process than he, so I can just give as good as I get when the kids go mean like that. Me and my boss has been there a few times to support him, but I mean... I jump at crutches. I can tell the kids off, which I'm good at, but that's pretty much all I can do. :-P

When I go back to work I won't work full time right away, so it'll be the both of us then for a while. I think that's good. Makes it a good transition, so to speak.

Anyway, some fun stuff! :-D

I've discovered that the graphics community, that makes these shiny icons for me and also all the blinkies I have at the bottom of each post... It was a dying community, but for some reason... It has a revival right now! :-D There's users coming back to LJ, at least in that community! TOTALLY COOL!

And I had a comment with [livejournal.com profile] sireesanwar that it's easy to not dare to make new friends on LJ, but really... Branch out! There's so many awesome users still here, so why not? :-) I know I have a quite a few new friends that I really appreciate here on LJ. :-) Not to mention I know there are those reading my LJ that are not LJ-users as well. :-D Totally appreciate those to!

Then I have to say, I had a bit of squee over an old fandom the other day. I nearly woke up the kid when I saw it! X-D But the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie is fast approching. Oh no, you say... Not another shitty one... And I was thinking the same. Until I saw the trailer the other night. And dude. It looks like they are going back to the dark / wacky / adventure that made the first three so good. Also... Cursed Captain Will Turner is there! :-D I can't even tell you how excited I am about that! *giddy* So check it out!



Johnny Cash music in a pirate movie? Well... I'd say it WORKS! :-D Brilliant! Looks really good! I thought I was way over that fandom.

I was wrong. X-D

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