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Midsummer happiness!

Midsummer… I actually had a good midsummer this year, believe it or not.

peting73 went to his friend like he does every Midsummer. And wanted to do this year to. I wasn’t so very interested after the disaster last year, put it that way…

Plan was to go to my aunts, since she always has that HUGE midsummer party every year where pretty much my whole crazy extended family meet up. So they did this year as well. :-)

At first it was said that

peting73 was gonna take moms car there and just go, but since mom had just done a plastic surgery to get rid of excess skin on her stomach, we had to pick up mom’s car at my brothers. No problems. :-) We did, so when

peting73 felt it was time to go, me and Alexandra waved him goodbye and enjoyed ourself at said party. We had A LOT of fun and stuffed ourselves with the awesome food my aunt always cooks for said party. Cooks and bakes, I might add. :-D And there's a lot of games, and it's just... such an awesome party! But the best part was that I got to hang around my beloved extended family.

It was weird going home to moms after that though, since mom wasn't there. Alexandra was exhausted, so it wasn't hard to get her to sleep. Once she was, I borrowed mom's computer a bit before going to sleep to.

Mom came home the day after. Me and Alexandra had just spent the day exploring moms yard and saying hello to the neighbours hens and rooster. We also had time to go check out the traditional midsummer celebrations in the little town, which are run by the folklore dancing group I was once part of. So it was fun to let Alexandra experience that. Which she liked. And to see my old friends again which I haven't meet for years. It had been raining on and off all day, and after we'd had a horse and carriage ride, we got caught in a heavy downpour so we got somewhat wet.

That's what meet mom when she got home. We'd just gotten back to moms house and Alexandra had good clothes on, so she was fine. I was soaked through. :-P Seeing mom was great! The surgery had gone wonderfully, and she was doing awesomely despite having had her surgery just the day before. Aunt was driving her and she had my cousins as company, so we had an impromptu midsummer mini-celebration, since mom wanted that. She was a bit bummed about missing aunt's huge midsummer celebration the day before. She's never done that.

We had a lot of fun, aunt even got somewhat drunk which is always hilarious. I think I laughed so much my cheeks hurt once Alexandra got put to bed. Mom and I shared the bed and Alexandra slept in the guest bed mom has bought for all her grandchildren to use.

Next day me and mom and Alexandra just hung out and relaxed. It was, in a word, just what I needed. :-D Bliss. Calm. Nice. And I got to fuss over mom, to the point she told me I was being silly. X-D

peting73 was supposed to be back in the late afternoon but since his friend figured he could get some help from

peting73 and asked it a bit late, he didn't get back until around midnight/1am somewhere. We chatted a bit, got a bit caught up with each other. I found out that despite that, he'd had a good time meeting his friend even though he agreed with me his friend needed to skip the grandeur since he still clings to the good old days of the student union pub and the Sexmasters and how cool he was then to everyone... *sigh*

Still,

peting73 had a good time. I had a good time. Alexandra had a good time. And mom did to, getting to hang out with her grand-daughter. I think this was a win-win situation for everyone and it will probably be a re-run celebrating Midsummer like this next year to. :-)

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My dear friend visiting me from New York!!!! (Image-heavy!)

Note: This post was written a few weeks ago, but I didn't get the photos uploaded until now...

And then there was the visit from New York. I still have a hard time believing they’ve really been here! o.O

I was a bit panicked before they came here, since I was supposed to work both days they were here, Friday and Saturday. Friday was no problem to take off, but the three hours for Saturday was a bit worse. Eventually we found someone that could help out, thank gawd… So I was off and available for both days! WOHOO!!

And I was SO NERVOUS! I mean, I’ve known

ruchirahni almost since I started to use my LJ, and man… that is a LONG TIME AGO! I didn’t remember how we’d meet, but Ruchi did, so she told me. :-) Apparently she’d ended up in an idiotic drama in a Xena community and I’d stood up for her and also gone to her LJ to say hi. Eventually we ended up friending each other and that’s how the story goes. I don’t remember this, but I’ll take her word for it. ;-)

Anyway,

ruchirahni is a vegetarian, so the Friday she and her best friend was to arrive, me and Alexandra started with a slow morning and then we went grocery shopping for vegetarian food. Once that was done, we went to the train station to pick them up.

See, they’d explored Sweden quite a bit before arriving to me. They’d been in Stockholm, the island Utö, Gothenburg and then me. For a history geek Stockholm is perfect. There are SO MANY museums there! You can learn quite a bit of swedish history in Stockholm alone.

Then they’d been to Utö which is a gorgeous island in Stockholms archipelago. And then they’d been to Gothenburg, which is the neighbouring city to Borås. So it was a short trip to Borås. And me. :-D

I was so nervous while we shopped me and Alexandra I had a belly ache. X-D Stupid, really. Like

ruchirahni says, we’ve known each other so crazy long we shouldn’t be nervous about meeting!

Alexandra thought it was fun to be at the train station and just wanted to go on the trains! Eventually they showed up though, and I gave

ruchirahni a great big hug. And it felt JUST RIGHT! Nerves just flew off of me.

And Alexandra started whining right away. Great… Figuring she was hungry we went home to my apartment first, where I cooked Alexandra food (definitely hungry at that point…) and

ruchirahni could explore my little home and I could get the groceries away. And we talked. Talked and talked and talked. Sara,

ruchirahni’s friend was very nice and waxed poetically about the swedish coffee!

We had a lovely time watching Disney Junior with Alexandra and making sure she got some food in her (and feeding Sara a swedish meatball).

Done with Disney and food, we went to the hotel where

ruchirahni and Sara were staying, and Alexandra fell asleep and took a nap. GOOD!

Then we figured we could go downtown for a FIKA! Which we did, even going to mine and Alexandra’s favorite fika-place. You think Alexandra behaved? Alas no. She was IN A CRANKY MOOD! And was going to make sure everyone knew about it.

( Cranky Alexandra is cranky... )

I’d thought we’d go exploring the Textile Museum after our fika, but Alexandra was having none of it. At that point,

peting73 was off from work and halfway home, so we went to pick him up and dumped Alexandra on him. (Sorry dear!)

Finally we could go to the Textile Museum, which was great! Even if we could only stay for a short time, since they were closing and all that, we still made the most of it. They have old clothes in a part of the museum that you can try on, which had

ruchirahni and Sara go a bit nuts! Pulling me into the crazy we had a bit of a dress up session. *lol* Was a lot of fun! The exhibit they had going of a famous swedish designer was nice to, so I’d call that a successful visit.

( Being silly in the Textile Museum! )

I think it was on the way back to the car that we checked out the University Library which is right next to the museum.

ruchirahni loved it and wondered loudly why they didn’t have libraries this nice at the universities in New York? Uhu… I wouldn’t know. X-D I thought New York University was a good one? *lol* And hey, you got New York City Library which is out of this world if I’ve done my research right. ;-)

( Interior of the University Library in town )

Then we went home to my home again for dinner, which

peting73 had cooked and it was DELICIOUS! Such a nice vegetarian stew! Alexandra was cranky again though (sigh) so she got the leftover meatballs from lunch.

The rest of the afternoon evening was spent talking. Talking, talking, talking. Both me and

peting73 are some serious history nerds, movie nerds and book nerds, so the swedish part of those subjects were definitely covered. (I’m still amazed how little you learn in the US about WWI and WWII…) Alexandra eventually went to bed, and we made MUDCAKE! And had an evening FIKA! (You can never have too much fika…)

( New Yorkers in my couch! )

At one point during our discussions we discovered it was 1am in the morning! O.o OOPS! So I drove

ruchirahni and Sara to the hotel making a plan for the morning.

And that concludes day 1!

Next morning we took a slow morning for Alexandra’s sake, but we still managed to head out at around 10am. First stop was the big city library where I used to work. Again,

ruchirahni waxed poetically about how nice it was. *lol* I loved seeing her walking around in the library among all the books. If ever there was a book nerd, it’s her. For serious. *grin*

Alexandra loves the library, so she was (for once!) in a good mood in the kid section checking out all the picture books. We found the book I bought for my brothers kids, the POP BOOK! X-D So I had a little story time there for Sara and

ruchirahni. It’s a kid book and kids LOVE to talk about pop! X-D

( Exploring the city library and being booknerds of all sizes! )

After that visit we got in our little car and drove to my brothers. Which takes 1½ hours. And it’s a bit cramped in the car… But we made do, and we had some lovely discussions in the car to which made the car-ride feel shorter.

Once at my brothers, we found that he was enjoying the sun on the backside of his house, listening to music after he’d baked a cake. A MUDCAKE OF COURSE! This seems to be a running theme during their visit… I have to send them the recipe… *lol*

And as soon as

ruchirahni and Sarah saw the cows grazing on the fields around my brother’s house, they got all excited and got in the field (past the barbed wire) to say hi to the cows. My brother, who works on a farm on a daily basis was a bit flabbergasted at this, but went with it. So we showed them a good way to get to the cows and my brother started talking swedish farming with

ruchirahni and Sara since

ruchirahni is a vegetarian, so she was really interested. Swedish farmers have a TON of rules they have to follow, more so than many other countries apparently, which she found very interesting. :-)

Also, my brother had been an idiot and

ruchirahni went into Doc-mood and checked his eye since it was hurting him and got quite red and irritated. If you are doing any welding, people. Use protection. And don’t do like my brother who just closed his eyes. IDIOT!

After we’d eaten mudcake and said hi to cows and tried to get Alexandra to eat anything (impossible since she was still grumpy), we left my brothers and went to moms instead. My brother came with in his big huge car, a Ford Galaxy from the 1960’s, which

ruchirahni and Sara rode in with him. On the way to mom’s we saw some elks/moose which got the New Yorkers all excited.

( New Yorkers on the swedish countryside! )

At mom’s, Alexandra perked up a bit. She’d had a nap in the car, and hey… Grandma is always popular. :-)

More vegetarian food at mom’s, she’d made a full on dinner with some vegetarian beefs she’d found. ‘It looked interesting, I had to try!’ was mom’s reasoning behind picking that. They were made out of quorn and DAMN they were tasty! Even Alexandra ate quite a bit! So we were all stuffed after that dinner!

After that we walked around and explored my mom’s yard and grounds. The garage which still looks like when my dad lived. The playhouse dad built for use when where kids from scratch. The view. The woods where we used to play. Our neighbours, closest one where the daughter in the house was the one who started off my bullying. Basically I told and showed all the things that had meant something to me when I grew up. Mom walked around with us as well, and even though she’s not that good in english (she understands it well, but can’t speak it), she managed to throw in a small comment here and there anyway.

Since it started to rain when we’d walked around for a bit, we went inside again looking at all of mom’s pretty things (she likes to collect pretty things and decorate her home). Checking out where my room used to be and all that stuff while mom prepared a…. FIKA! :-D We also took the chance to say hello to all of mom’s four cats, including HUGE Ozzy that

ruchirahni fell in love with, I think… He’s a Maine Coon… and a BIG one! Currently weighing around 11-12 kilos, and he’s not fully grown yet… Insane!

Then we had FIKA downstairs. And talked. And talked and talked and talked. :-D Both mom and I agreed and told

ruchirahni she would be a WONDERFUL doctor one day, since she got her heart right where it should be. Mom should know. She’s 62 and has worked as an assistant nurse ever since she started working.

Alexandra just played with mine and brothers old toys while we were talking that mom has pulled down from the attic. We didn’t even notice how the time flew until it was 9pm or so in the evening, and we had a 2 hour drive to get back to Borås.

( At my mothers to see where I grew up! And to be spoiled... )

While driving we continued talking and talking and talking… So the ride back to Borås didn’t feel that long as it usually does. We also made a plan for the next day so I could drive them to the airport. I insisted. It’s only a 30-40 min drive, so why shouldn’t I? And their flight didn’t leave until midday, so it was no problem really.

Dropping

ruchirahni and Sarah off at their hotel we then drove home and once we’d gotten Alexandra to sleep in her bed instead of the car, we both collapsed in our bed.

Next morning was good and nice (with a kiddo not to cranky, wohoo!). Once I was ready I went to pick up

ruchirahni and Sarah so we’d be at the airport at a good time before their plane left. Once at the airport we had a FIKA, of course. ;-) And talked some more. During the whole weekend I felt quite comfortable talking to

ruchirahni friend Sarah, since I’ve learned so much about her from

ruchirahni’s entries. And apparently

ruchirahni had talked to Sarah a lot about me to, so it went both ways. (It appeared as if it was only good things to! I hope at least…)

As it got closer to them leaving, we hugged a lot. Both me and

ruchirahni assured each other that we were very happy about finally getting to meet. And that YES! Apparently I was just what

ruchirahni had expected. And

ruchirahni? Well… She was just what I had expected. Just a 1000 times more so! :-) Such an awesome woman. Whoever ends up with her as a psychiatric doctor is going to be really fucking lucky! :-D

Once I’d dropped them off, I felt empty and sad. Already missing them. We talked and laughed so much my jaw was a bit sore. :-)

Such amazing women. Just… amazing. It still blows my mind that she’s been here. It really does. All the way from Brooklyn, New York City, USA to little Borås, Sweden. Amazing.

So happy to be able to call you a dear friend,

ruchirahni.

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A summer for the history books...

This summer is going to go down the history books... Geezes christ. o.O

I don't even know how it ended up this way, but I'll be exhausted after this summer. And it's not like there's anything bad going on. It's all good fun exciting stuff! But... THERE'S A LOT OF IT!!! o.O

May 8th and May 9th Ruchi is coming to visit me! We've followed each other here on LJ since I got my LJ almost... which was 2001. That's A LONG TIME AGO! And now she's coming to visit me. In just 2 weeks. I can't even wrap my head around that. Crazy! I so look forward to it though! I just worry what to show her? I mean, what can little Borås have to show to a born and breed girl from Brooklyn New York?!?!? I am just a LITTLE panicked over this fact! o.O *flails and runs around*

June 5th I am going to Sweden Rock Festival to watch Mötley Crües final visit to Sweden. It's their Last Tour run in Europe this summer, and once they'd done this world tour (running around the world a couple of times it appears... mostly in the US...), after that... They'll split up. They've even signed a contract for this. It's sad. Mötley Crüe is one hell of a band come glam metal rock. I love their music. But Mick Mars, bless him... His body is literary giving up on him. I have SUCH admiration of that man. So I understand if they pull the plug, I really do.

June 18th-21st me and Alexandra was supposed to stay at mom's to celebrate Midsummer. Supposed, I say. Since mom called today. She is getting surgery done on her stomach to remove extra skin after her gastric bypass. Something she's waited a long time for. And she found out today what dates to be at the hospital for this. 18th. Of course. Fuck. Peting is going to visit his best friend that lives 8 hours drive from here for that weird Midsummer paty that said best friend arranges each year. And what with the disaster last year with neither me nor Alexandra doing very good... I am NOT going. So I'd planned to spend Midsummer with mom. Well, that just didn't happen. Now I don't know what to do? I might call my brother and see... Maybe MIL... Although Peting and his relatives just don't celebrate Midsummer, which I love to do, so we'll see what happens there. I have some time yet to plan.

June - July somewhere snowstormskies might come to visit me again. She did last summer and she LOVED it here, which was wonderful to hear. We had a lovely, lovely time. Unfortunately she's having a really rough time right now, so it's not sure she'll be able to make it. I'd love to be able to give her hugs again though.

July 17-19th it's the yearly summer LARP based on the Fall Out games. So we call it the Fall Out LARP even if it's really called Valvet. One of the BEST LARP's I've been to! I've had such AMAZING things happen during that LARP, I don't even have words. I just pray and hope my darling friend J is coming this year. I ADORE playing with him! He is SUCH a sweetheart with one hell of a twisted mind. You end up plotting with him? You bet your ass you'll have one hell of a time. I've screamed. I've cried. I've scarred myself (accidentally from stumbling and hitting my knee on a rock!). I've been terrified. I've laughed so hard my stomach hurts. It's... such an amazing LARP, I'd hate to miss it. Oh, and it so happens it runs during my birthday weekend this year. Of course. X-D (My birthday is the 19th.)

22nd of August my friend Chigrima who I wrote my masters thesis with is getting married to her long time friend and then partner Silvestris. They've meet and ended up friends before I meet Peting and got together with him. They were just friends at first. Then they were friends sharing an apartment... And then I think it progressed from there. These two ladies are AMAZING! They really are. And I am absolutely THRILLED they are getting married!

And I'm supposed to be able to work there somehow to. At a new job. I don't even know how this happened. I swear. But I need an extra vacation after this summer. o.O

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Kicking my own ass - Life - Interesting vids...

I am doing what I keep telling others not to. I am not posting because I don't feel like anyone would find it interesting.

*head-desk*

WTH? This is MY journal. I should post no matter what. If it is interesting to me or to anyone else. To write down my thoughts does have a tendency to clear them up. I keep returning. I keep poking at this place. Because it's just... home. If you've posted/written/journaled/blogged at the same place for 11 ½ years, it does end up home, wether you like it or not.

I'll just be writing for me sake. Sharing for my sake. And if anyone else happens to like it, than cool. :-)

So on that note... I got rid of my cast this Friday! :-D YAY!!! Six weeks of me jumping around on one leg (with support) is now OVER!!! I can walk on the leg, although I still have to use regular crutches to take some weight off the leg still. It's stiff as all hell! Geezes... I have exercises that I should do every day which are dull but I can feel they are doing a difference. So dull, but good for me. Isn't that always the case with these things? *lol*

At least now I am more mobile and can move around. :-)

My brother with his kids and my mom came over this Saturday, which was AWESOMELY fun! (And they cooked food for us for some reason...) I love my brother to bits, and when a guy like him (6.2 feet tall!) takes a seat IN YOUR LAP!!! Now that's sibling-love to a whole new level! Also, his ass is bony. Someone needs to feed him. X-D

We had a wonderful time though! And Alexandra got to get out and play with her cousins at a playground which was fun by all, while I stayed at home with my bad leg and fixed coffee for the adults to drink when they got back. :-)

Then today, Sunday, we cleaned the apartment. Weekly cleaning. AND I COULD HELP!!! Yes, you worry-wards. I listened to my body and didn't do to much. :-) Promise! It's funny though how happy you can be from managing to clean the bathroom. X-D It's the easiest room to clean in this apartment, so I felt I would be abel to do that to take some load of

peting73. And it worked FINE! :-D So now I can add that to my list of chores until I'm fully recovered. :-)

I am planning on being able to get out of the house on Saturday though. (With crutches!) To say shit has hit the fan... SERIOUSLY! at the vampire-LARP I am in would be an understatement. And not only for my character, but for ALL characters!!! Well, I really Really REALLY wanna go on Saturday! So I am doing my exercises stubbornly every day! And I know there's an elevator where we have our society local, so at least I don't have to hobble up four stories... :-) I have to wonder what our GM's have smoked though... X-D I love all them people, seriously....

To end it, have some pimping of random stuff I've come across online lately. :-)

I found THIS video very VERY interesting! Especially since I wrote my masters thesis on comics. This is about cartoons. In fact, about cartoons that are very very racist. For the simple reason they were made during such an era. It is very interesting and I do really like the way the two guys in the video discuss this. I would have loved to talk to these two guys while writing my thesis to be honest. It could have been interesting. *geeks out*

( Old Cartoons Were RACIST! )

And while we're on the subject of cartoons, I've started following this cool girl Laci Green on Twitter. She's a YouTuber of some fame apparently, and is doing a YouTube show for MTV. It's all about sex-positivity, gender-positivity and just... positivity all around. :-) I have yet to see a vid by her I didn't enjoy. Here she takes up gender stereotypes in Disney movies. But not the female stereotypes, interestingly enough. But the MALE stereotypes! I really enjoyed that, I have to say! And it's not a 'not all men'-thing and hurt-men-complain-thing. No, no, no... This is a feminist girl looking at stereotypes in a new way, and I do like that. :-)

( How Disney Stereotypes Hurt Men )

And now I'll destroy the swedish reputation a bit... X-D I don't remember who sent this to me, but I am now a fan of the YouTube channel Regular Ordinary Swedish Meal Time. These guys are NUTS! X-D And, sad to say... very swedish. *laughs ass off* They speak in swedish (mostly) but there's subtitles and they don't speak that much so it's easy to follow if you don't speak swedish. I keep laughing my way through these, SERIOUSLY!!!

( Chop Chop Carnage Stew (Alternative Pyttipanna) )

Also, I happen to like Pyttipanna. A lot. ;-D

And it seems like Netflix is coming up with a very intersting TV-show. Especially if you're a Marvel-fan. A new take on Daredevil. Now, I really like the comic-character, but I feel they butchered the character in the movie. This, however... looks very very interesting. Going back to what the comic is REALLY about.

( Marvel's Daredevil - Teaser Trailer )

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Family filled with bad luck? - Movie! - Books!

So... the 23e of January I broke my leg... A week later, my mom fell over and scratched up her whole face. Going on a check up, she found out that her bad knee? Had a crack in the kneecap. Fuck. No cast needed, but she needs a protective knee pad thingy to make sure her kneecap stays put. And guess what? The week after that my brother... got ran over by a cow (well, a heifer) and twisted his knee... so one of those knee pad thingies for him to, but he only had to use it for about a week or so.

WTH? o.O

And that's not all!

Mom came over last weekend to hang out and help us out a bit. As long as she's taking it easy and moving around slow, her knee is fine, so that's good. Anyway. Guess what happened then? She dropped her phone in the toilette! X-D No joke! We didn't find it there until about an hour after she'd noticed it was gone. And that's just because I needed to use the bathroom.

Geezes. Enough is enough universe! Give us a break!

At this point all there is is to laugh about it all, to be honest.

I watched an amazing movie the other day. Desert Flower. I pretty much broke down. It's about the life of Waris Dirie and her life from being a little girl in the Somali dessert to a model and to a spokeswoman against female genital mutilation. To say I broke down during that movie, despite the fun parts, would be an understatement. It was done to her when she was 3 years old.... Just 3. About the age as Alexandra....

To say Alexandra got plenty cuddles that night would be an understatement.

( Desert Flower Trailer... )

Watch it. I think it's an important movie. I've put a hold on the book at the closest library (where I'm supposed to be working if it hadn't been for my broken leg...). It's next to Alexandras daycare, so I'm sure

peting73 will pick it up for me.

spicehobbit, my best friend, came by said hi and helped me clean a bit as well not to long ago. She dropped off the book Temeraire av Naomi Novik. In english. ;-) So there's that. And I'm reading the book Toddler Taming as well. Because, damn. I have a toddler now. o.O At least Alexandra is a moderately calm toddler. :-)

Now I'm going to hobble with my walking support (looking like this) to go eat and watch some Supernatural and read a bit. Working on a link/pimp post as well. Gonna be a lot of 50 Shades of ~~Grey~~Fail in that. ;-)

Laters!

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My wonderful family... and my Achilles heel...

If you didn't know it, I am somewhat a silly sod... *shakes head at self* My best friend,

spicehobbit, and my MIL has been here today and helped us clean this place. It was a mess. Mostly because I haven't been able to do anything. And I hate, Hate, HATE feeling this useless!

Anyway. Mom was supposed to come help but... of course she fell over to outside her house. o.O Gladly she didn't break anything, but she got a HUGE black eye which makes it look like she went a round in the ring against a boxer...

Of course I got worried, but she assured me she was fine. My aunt (who just as mom is an assistant nurse) had been there and taken care of her and my brother as well, so once I was reassured she was going to be fine, I was good.

But that meant I had to ask for help from someone else. And even though I've known my best friend for... 25 years this autumn and my MIL for as long as I've known

peting73... It's was still very very hard for me to ask for help. I've been down all day, so has

peting73, which made it even harder. Eventually I did it for his sake. He is not used to taking care of all the household work plus Alexandra plus work like he has to do now. I am just useless currently.

Both of them came over and man... WOW!

peting73 only had to do the floors, the rest...

spicehobbit and my MIL did for us. I am... so grateful right now, I don't even know what to say.

I'm a helper. Not someone that asks for help. And I will admit I am struggling with this.

It's just been a week. One short week. And I'll probably have this cast for six weeks in total. It'll be tough as hell. :-/

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Come and get to know me! A random meme because why the hell not?

Name: Emma aka KSena
Birthday: 19th of July
Zodiac: Cancer

Hair: Wavy and it's past my shoulders now, finally! Odd swedish brownish colour that is neither dark nor light. I call it the rat-clolour
Eyes: Bluish with some green in them.
Height: 6 feet aka 1.80 meters
Body Type: Big? OK, stout or chubby.

Relationship Status: Been with the same one for 11 years, so stuck. :-) Not married, living in sin.
Religious Views: What does that even mean? Don't like religion at all. Atiest of sorts.
Political Views: What does that even matter?!?! No offense, but why does US people always put so much significance into what you religion you believe in or what politics you go for... *grumble* I consider myself supporting the Socialdemocratic Workers' Party of Sweden the most. There. Happy? *double-grumble*

Favourite Colour: Black, red, purple.
Favourite Flowers: Orchids.

Favourite Movie(s): So, so, so many. I did answer this in another meme I currently do. Gladiator, Braveheart, Robin Hood Prince of Theives, Pirates of the Carebbiean movies, Lord of the Rings movies, Harry Potter movies, Interview with a vampire, Hungergames... I could go on.

Favourite Song(s): Too many to mention

3 Random Facts about you:
1. Was badly bullied as a kid but has since got over it, apart from one thing. I feel paniced everytime I try to do any form of exercise.

2. Grew up way out on the countryside in a classic red swedish house. Very idyllic. But now, I would never ever wanna live like that again. I love my apartment in the city, thank you.

3. Got plenty of tattoos and piercings which the kids at school kinda like. :-) Especially the smaller ones.

Story behind your username:
Long story. I was elected to be a member of the Student Union Club The Sexmasters (no, got nothing to do with sex), and they thought it was funny to give me the nickname KSena. You always get a nickname given to you by the seniour members in the club. Anyway, where did they get the idea for KSena from then? Well, I am a diehard Xena-fan, a Xenaite. And KSena in swedish is pronouced the same way as Xena, so they thought that was fun. And there you go. Then I got myself a livejournal and wanted to use KSena as a username, but it was taken. So I threw in some extra letters making it kseenaa. And there you go!

1. Nickname(s): KSena, obviously. ;-)

2. Age: 37. Born 1977.

3. Location: Borås, Sweden.

4. Occupation: School-librarian.

5. Partner? Yes,

peting73.

6. Kid(s): A daughter who had her second birthday beginning of August called Alexandra.

7. Brothers/Sisters: A brother four years younger than me.

8. Pets: Two black cats, Skuld and Verdandi.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
Stressed out at work. SO MUCH TO DO!!! And no energy to do them.
My daughter. Things happening every damn day.
Family, trying to find time to visit them since most of them live about 2 hours away from here.
I did mention my work stressing me out, right?

Damn my life is boring.

10. Parents: Mother - who is even more crazy then me. Father - died at age 47 13 or so years ago.

11. Who are some of your closest friends?:

spicehobbit, no contest. We got to know each other at school when we were both 13 and we're still the best of friends. She knows me better than I know myself sometimes! And then, of course, there's all my young friends at the Vampire-LARP Club that I love and adore.

12. What are some of the things you like most? My computer, my books, movies, LARP, cats, piercings, tattoos... I don't know what else to put.

13. A photo of yourself and anything else you want to say: I'm posting a photo shortly, don't have any available right here. Or you could go to my Instagram HERE. I'm sure there's a photo of me there somewhere and not only of my daughter...

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Vampire-LARP and Alexandra's birthday party!

Oh hum... Where to start today? Well, we can start with resolving my last post, right? I did meet up with my LARP-mates and the OOC-drama was resolved. To my shock! Despite the flail and drama T had done during the last LARP, that Thursday he was cool as a cucumber. Even if, during the talked out scene, his character was still in very VERY mortal danger. Unfortunately his character did survive in the end and gladly my character did to. So the plot continues...

I think maybe the fact he has gotten a girlfriend lately has helped. She's really young, a vampire-LARPer as well. But I do like her. She's just 17 (or is it 18?), but she shows GREAT potential, so yeah... She's a great girl, and it seems as if they fit together. Never know if things will last when you're that young, but... It looks good for them. :-) And she's really good for him and his temper tantrums. ;-)

Anyway, so that was all kinds of good. And a lot of fun.

And then, this Saturday... Alexandra had her second birthday. :-)

It's insane how quickly these two years have FLOWN by! She's born, and suddenly life moves in superspeed.

I'd made farmers cookies (

peting73's favorites), an cardamom spiced apple spongecake, a swiss roll spiced with saffron and filled with lingonberry jam and sweet buttercream. And, of course, a classic swedish birthday cake. Baked these things late LATE at night after work each day during that entire week. Motherhood = late night work.

It was worth it though, since everyone enjoyed all them baked goods. :-) But we stared with a picnic at the little yard here that belongs to the apartment building. It has a playground and some nice benches and a wooden table. So we loaded up with a BIG bowl of chicken salad for everyone and my own homemade dressing. :-) Was a great success. Alexandra and her cousins played in the playground and had a lot of fun! It was very obvious after a bit that her biggest cousin, Tilda who is starting secnod year of school, is going to be Alexandra's idol since she tried to copy everything Tilda did. *lol* It was SOOO cute! :-D

Alexandra got a ton of gifts to. :-) Really fine stuff. Doll's pram, dolls, doll clothing, toy tractor's (two!), some really nice clothes, pretend cleaning equipment (she loves "helping" me to clean...). And just really nice stuff for her to play with! I bought her two books and a child's stool that she can stand on to reach things. She's such a spoiled kid... I suspect a repeat from friends and family this Christmas... ;-)

It's good others spoil her though, since that means I don't have to. I just hope she won't get to spoiled. :-P Time will tell!

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Life moves on while sadness lingers...

Back to work today. Feels weird and good. I have an easy start though. This week I am working at the library closest to where I live. So it takes me about 5-10 mins to get to work, which is quite the difference how it’ll be later on... I wish I could work there all the time. I love the patrons there and the other librarians that work there. It’s an integrated library, meaning it’s both a regular library and a school library at the same time. And since I love working with both things, it would be perfect for me. Not to mention, Alexandra’s new daycare is in the neighboring house...

Nothing to be done about, I suppose. I know shit will hit the fan when I get back to the school library where I usually work. I have this week here (bliss), next week at a library outside of town (I haz the car), and the week after that... time to unpack the library I packed before I went on my summer vacation/holiday. AND plan and start up my anti-bullying project that I have a budget to use for.

Oh yeah. Back to work. With a vengeance. Can you tell?

It’s good that I keep busy though. If I’d been unemployed I would just have gone around thinking about Tashé constantly. I can’t help but wonder if she would still be alive if I’d been unemployed and able to talk to her more? Crazy thinking maybe and it’ll probably drive me crazy to, but I can’t help it.

Mom, my brother and his kids and

spicehobbit came over to visit yesterday. It was good. I needed that, all them hugs and the love. It was nice. We took all the kids and went downtown to the big new playground there and let them lose. It was brilliant. If a bit hot. We have a bit of a heatwave here in Sweden currently, and you can definitely feel it. But the kids had fun, and I had cold drinks with me for everyone.

Then we went to grab a fika at a fika-place close by. While we were there... it started to rain. A lot. So we were quite wet once we got to the car. And after the drive up to our home and the run from the car at the parking lot? We were all soaked! *lol* But I had plenty clothes to hand out to everyone so no one had to walk around wet.

After that little adventure we had dinner and all the cousins played the afternoon away until it was time for them to leave. It was lovely. It really really was.

Week before that I spent 5 days with mom, including my birthday-weekend, so we got home this Wednesday last. She’d arranged a barbecue on my birthday and invited a few friends and neighbors.. and family... *smiles* *shakes head* She’s a bit nuts my mom, and she loves to arrange parties and get-togethers. It was a success though, and I did have a lovely lovely day. Days after the celebration was spent lazing around and also

peting73 doing a mad dash back home and returning because he forgot his pain-meds (STUPID!) and me going out drinking and clubbing with my globetrotting cousin Mariell, who have since left to work at an insanely luxurious hotel at the Maldives again.

Good times were had, and I am trying to keep them in mind to ward off too much of the sadness I feel. It’s there, and it should. But I can’t drown in it. I have a family to take care of and be with after all.

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Meeting the lovely snowstormskies... in person!

Can I get a vacation from my vacation? *lol*

Anyway, to continue my story... After I'd been to the LARP that I wrote about in my last post, I had to do a quick clean in the apartment during the Monday because I was expecting some FINE visitor!

Who you might ask? Well, no other than

snowstormskies!!! :-D

( Story of the epic meeting between KSena and SnowStormSkies under here... )

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Preparations for this summers post-apocalyptic Fallout-LARP!!!

Not this weekend, but next weekend it's time! I'll go on a LARP for the entire weekend! I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT! You have no idea.... :-D

Even though I am excited like I haven't been for anything in quite a while, I worry to. I mean, last time I went on a three-day LARP, Alexandra didn't exist. Yeah, it was almost three years ago last time I was at this huge LARP. I haven't been apart from Alexandra for that long since. She'll be fine, I hope.

peting73 is going to be home, and they'll hang out with grandma, going to do the zoo and doing all sorts of fun things. I am just being silly I suppose that she'll miss me to much, you know? *shrug*

Hopefully I'll be so busy during the LARP I won't have time to worry about her...

Me and J, my dear dear friend had a coffe+cake date the other day discussing the LARP. We played lovers in a very romantic and dramatic relationship all them years ago. And that story-line is still not finished! :-D Last time I was at this LARP was 2011! This love-story started at the first of this LARP 2010... developed more during 2011... When I was very VERY pregnant 2012 I obviously couldn't be a part of the LARP, so I figured out a reason for my character not to be in the village and hence J's character got love-letters... 2013 the date for the LARP was on Alexandras first birthday. Crap. No LARP, and more love-letters. *lol*

But this year! They picked the PERFECT dates! And Alexandra is big enough she'll be fine with

peting73 alone! (Although I suspect she'll be a leach when I get home...) And I work so I have a salary to buy stuff for!

AKA, post-apocalyptic LARP IS A GO for me this year! It's an annual LARP, every summer, so I hope I can go next year to! And that I can keep my character alive for many many years to come!

Anyway, while planning I randomly remembered I have a tent that looks sorta medieval in our storage, so I am considering bringing that. It's big enough for both me and J to fit in there. And I've bought a new sleeping bag since my old one, well... It's so old it's not even funny and doesn't work so well. Since I'm always cold during the night, I figured a proper sleeping bag might be a good idea. DAMN it was expensive though!

I've also bought cans with canned food so I'll have something to eat. I'll make small pasties as well to bring. And plenty water.

First and second rule of LARP in the woods: Make sure you have a warm and dry place to sleep. Make sure you won't be hungry or thirsty.

If one of them rules is broken, you won't be able to concentrate on your character and you won't have fun. Basic needs need to be meet. :-)

My outfit will be different to. I've written a story about what my character has been up to these two years where I haven't been able to go to the LARP, and considering what she's done and the people she's meet... She's changed a bit. Not much, but enough for her clothing to change. :-)

It's all coming together, and I think I have everything I need by now. :-P I hope. I just keep my fingers crossed it won't rain. :-P That would seriously suck.

I even bought a gift to

peting73 on Qwertee.Com since he is being such a sweetheart and letting me go do my thing. :-D

Tomorrow I'll go visit mom and borrow some stuff from her to bring to the LARP and on Sunday we'll clean up the apartment and I'll make pasties. Then work, work, work for Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Friday.... LARP STARTS!!!

After LARP my vacation starts! :-D AND MY DEAR FRIEND

snowstormskies is coming to visit me!!!

ALL THE GOOD THINGS!!! FUTURE IS LOOKING AWESOME!

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Christmas of 2013...

After being so down about Christmas... and having a shitty morning on Christmas Eve with a grumpy daughter... (We forgot the gifts! o.O And had to turn back to get them after we'd driven for nearly an hour already which added an hour to the journey in total. SUCKED!)

It actually turned out alright.

Day before Christmas Eve we visited

peting73s mom for a mini-Christmas, as they call it. *lol* His relatives are not that big into Christmas, if I put it that way. :-) It was nice though, not to much pressure. And people actually liked their gifts, which I had been worried about when I bought them, so success!

First thing I got when we arrived at mom's at Christmas Eve was a HUGE hug from my brother who was already there with his kids. That hug saved my Christmas, I swear. No one hugs like my brother. Not even

peting73. (Sorry, my love.)

So after a rocky start, we spent Christmas Eva at mom's. Here in Sweden Christmas Eve is The Day you celebrate Christmas on, so we spent it with mom. My family, my brothers family, my cousins (my aunt worked) and just hanging out with mom. We ate a RIDICULOUSLY amount of Christmas food that mom had prepared, opened gifts, watched as Alexandra played with her cousins... had a fright as Alexandra climbed halfway up mom's stairs... ate more food and sweets and just had a generally good time.

And yes, Alexandra got a crazy amount of toys and clothes in gifts! :-D

Christmas Day is not a huge day in Sweden. The pubs and nightclubs are usually open, so my brother was out partying hard with our cousins. But first we hung out with aunt, brother (his kids was with their mom), cousins and mom that afternoon/ evening as well. Was great, it really was. :-) Just talking, eating more Christmas food and hanging out with family. And some more gifts... *lol*

On Boxing Day my brother always have a little Christmas gathering for my fathers side of the family, and he did this year to, despite being a single dad this year. But he did great! I don't know what has gotten into him after his divorce, but... he has turned into a baking dad. He bakes and cooks and bakes and makes sweets and bakes some more. *lol* As a result I gave him one of the most classical cookbooks with only cakes and cookie recipes in it for Christmas gift, because I felt he needed it! *grin* So, safe to say there was A LOT to eat at his gathering to!

And more gifts... Did I mention more gifts? Mostly for the kids. *lol* But it was great fun for sure.

My brother has started to renovate his house again, since he wants it the way HE likes it without to much trace of his ex-wife's taste, you know? Fully understandable. And what with how skilled/handy/practical he is... He does everything by himself. It looks GREAT! :-)

Alexandra did great during this years Christmas Marathon! :-) Stayed up a little longer each night and slept like the dead during the nights, letting me and

peting73 sleep long. Was wonderful.

So yeah.

All in all? It turned out awesome! :-)

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10 years ago...

... I created a LiveJournal.

Had I only known how much it would change my life, ups and downs, I would have thought twice about it.

I even named my first entry First Entry... It's HERE if you wanna see. I was writing much shorter entries back then. Short and quick. And I remember I shared a TON of memes and tests.

What happened to all that I wonder? It's not 'cool' to do anymore?

I wanted to do something special for my tenth year anniversary. Like... I don't know. Offer to write a ton of drabbles or something. Or... Maybe even do a giveaway or something...

But I really don't feel like it.

Lately I've tried to figure out why I don't want to post that much anymore. And the other day, I think I figured it out.

It's not LJ's fault. They've done nothing wrong in my book, just tried to develop the site to the best of their ability, and keep it alive and thriving.

But it's the negativity that has spread though the sites users like a plague. Because as soon as I say that I like LJ, I get negativity. As soon as LJ is doing anything, I see negativity. It seems like no matter what, there's negativity. No one even wants to give any changes a chance. And that makes me sad. Bottomless sad. :-/

LJ will continue to be my home though.

Ten years. I created my LJ in December 2003. Just months before, in September 2003 I meet

peting73. I've had this LJ for as long as our relationship has lasted.

I've written about my struggles with the Sexmaster's society, the Student Union and it's pub, and writing my national masters thesis at the University here. About my friends and family. About the loss of my father, even if it happened before I got this LJ. About my struggles getting a job. About the job's I've had and lost. About the vampire-LARP and how I've been doing there. About my mixed feeling's about moving in with

peting73, and later the fact that all went well. About losing my old friends that I grew up with. About becoming an aunt, and the joys with that. About my disease, Endometriosis, and the struggles with that. When we got engaged, right out of the blue. And my journey to get pregnant, even if I kept it very vague since we wanted to keep it a secret... And when we told, and I've never gotten that many comments on one single post... Birth of Alexandra, and my struggles being a new mom bottle feeding my baby girl...

Just... life. I've shared my life here. Every single detail. I've always been an open book, even in real life. Honest like few others. It's a warning I always give. Disgustingly honest person here. It goes both online and in real life that warning. My RL friends enjoy it, likes it, seem to want it... And I hope that those who have stuck around here on LJ do to.

I'll be here. Seems like nothing can drag my away from this place. I hope someone might take a moment to give me a comment here... Because I miss the discussions I've had in comments like I don't even know what. Used to get 5-15 comments a post... Now I'll be happy if I get two.

Things change. Life moves on.

But one thing's for sure. I'll be here. And continue to be here until the site finally closes down, if that ever happens...

Oh! And I changed my layout to what I can remember being the closest to what I used when I started using this site... Not exactly, but close enough.

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I am alive. Have a bullet-list to prove it.

I know I haven't been around in a while, and I do apologize for that. Or maybe I shouldn't. If you've stuck around, I suppose that is a good thing. Am a bit down tonight, but I'll try to make a sorta update anyway.

So much has happened since last, I think I'll make it into a bullet-list instead, because otherwise this post will be a fucking novel, and I wouldn't wanna do that to my dear friends on my f-list.

LARP is still good and a lot of fun. I was a bit behind on things like plots and stuff, but apparently my partner in crime there, whose character I play a servant to, was a bit behind on things as well, so together we got caught up and now we are ready to make mischief again. Fun, fun!

My brother, who as I've mentioned before, had a divorce, is doing SOOOO much better! He misses his kids terribly those weeks they are with their mother, but drowns himself in work then, so he can spend more time with his kids when they are with him. He really is doing his best, and is a great father, I swear! And a hardworking farmhand to, definitly.

Been visiting my brother, since he had his birthday not to long ago, and damn... That was A LOT of fun! Now when he is doing a lot better after said divorce, he is pretty much back to what he was like when we grew up. At least the bickering between us, according to our mother. X-D Hilarious!

My mom is doing good to, she is as crazy as ever. You heard about the operetta The Merry Widow? Dude, she got that one beat. *LOL* She is out dancing and hanging with her sister and her friends, and she is knitting like crazy for her three grandkids and... How the hell she has time to work, I have no idea. But she is happy, healthy and... slightly nuts, so who am I to complain? :-) Oh, and she's 60 years old. If it hadn't been for her white hair, you wouldn't have been able to tell.

On that note, I found one white hair in my forehead. Only one. I am apparently getting old. I give it 20 more years, tops, and I'll have as paper white hair as my mom.

Fandom wise I have slacked off a bit with going through the members list of tokiohotelslash. Which I feel bad about. I have kept up posting on gs_daily pretty well, which I feel good about. And I think the pimp-posts I do at tokiohotelslash are appreciated. I haven't gotten much feedback, but I do hope so. There has been a bit more posts in that community since I took over and started them pimp-posts, so I see that as a positive thing. When I have the energy and talked to mods of other big communities, I have another plan for said community I want to kick off... Will have to finish going through all them members first though. :-P

I've started up another RP with my darling friend from New Zealand. Damn that woman and her brain. Who knew a crossover between Pirates of the Caribbean and Supernatural would work out so fine? And that Dean Winchester and Captain Will Turner of the Flying Dutchman would make such a great, if doomed, pairing? :-) The RP I do with snowstormskies is still going very strong as well. Torg-strong. *LOL* I love it to bits, and she being a fic-writer from start, she sure keeps me on my toes, taking a whole other take on this RP-thing! I have a ton of fun with it. :-D Much love on you two girls for giving me such a gift as being able to play with you. Honored. Really. :-)

Alexandra is doing really good. Goes to the daycare center Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday ever week. 8am to 1pm. Gives me some time to myself looking for work and being a bit housewifey. If I get hired by the hour though, the hours she's there changes or days changes if needed. The staff is really great there, even if I it does take a bit to walk there, something I am not to fond off.

Talking off... I did work this week. Wednesday and Thursday. For the first time since I had Alexandra. At a school-library at a school with a lot of troubled kids. Helped a bunch of kids. Had to throw out a bunch of loud rude kids. Got questions about my piercings and tattoos. Got called a racist. I felt right at home. :-) I really hope I get to work there again or at another school-library. I love working with kids, any age. Seriously. So awesome!

When not working I am trying to make sense of the websites for the unemployment fund AND the employment office, since I have to report on to both continuously . Their rules have changed since I was unemployed last. Both for the better and for the worse... I think I have figured it out now though. :-) If I do one thing wrong, I'll be cut off from my unemployment benefits. Fair, but damn... that is a lot of stuff to keep in mind to make sure of that. o.O *has a list*

My best friend, spicehobbit and I are still working our way through Supernatural. We have the last two episodes of season 5 to watch before we can start up on season 6. Our current amusement is to guess how much more angsty it can get... The show still keep surprising us with upping the angst even more. *LOL* We truly enjoy it though, I gotta say. A show that I thought was worse than it was. Keeps proving me wrong. Well done, Supernatural!

I also preordered Sons of Anarchy Season 5 and since it arrived I keep working my way through that one again. I did watch it without subtext at one point, but there's one character with a pretty thick accent... *cough*Chibs*cough* ... that I just can't follow or understand without subtext, so now I actually understand the plot of the season much MUCH better! Can't wait to see season 6, seriously... That show keeps throwing me curve balls...

And so it ended up a novel anyway. Points to you if you managed to read through all that. Now I am going to bed since we'll be home both me and Alexandra tomorrow. She has a bit of a cold right now, so nothing to exiting for us.

Laters!

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August Meme, take seven!

( All the questions! )

Question 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

I am quite happy where I live, but if I could choose to live somewhere else, it would be somewhere more tropical. But still not TOO hot! (My dear cousin has no problems with 30-40 degrees Celsius in temperature after living in the Maldives, Qatar and Oman. I guess you get used to it, but yeah... :-P A "paradise" somewhere. :-) As long as I get an AWESOME house with an AWESOME pool and a nice room for us and a nice room for Alexandra, I am good. :-D

I follow the Twitter @Fascinatingpics and I keep looking at the photos there and all I can think is... Why is Sweden so BORING?

Question 14 - Your earliest memory.

It is never easy to say what is a memory and what is something people has told you about... But there's two things I do remember.

One is a toy I called Lafajätt (pronounced Lafayette). And now I can't find a photo of it on Google. :-/ Anyway, it was one of those toys you pull after yourself on a string. And it almost looked like a ladybug. It had the weirdest wheels that made the weirdest sound that I loved. And I can still remember that sound and that toy. I don't know if mom still has it on her attic... Maybe, maybe not. Who knows? *shrug*

The other thing I remember... and this is SUCH a weird story.... Is when I peed myself. Sitting on a toilet with my panties still up. At my maternal grandparent’s apartment. Mom don't remember this, but it is so, so clear in my mind.

I must have been very very little. Like needing help with the bathroom little. Because I remember mom lifting me up on the toilet seat. Me finding it scary, since I didn't wanna fall down in the toilette. Mom holding me, sitting crouched low in front of me. Me doing what I am supposed to. Peeing. Telling mom it was hard to pee, like something stopping it. Mom telling me of course not. I insist a little, but finish peeing. Mom lifting the back of my skirt to dry my butt. And laughing and telling me so sorry mom is being silly you have your panties still on! And then... That's it. I don't remember anymore. The clearest in my mind is mom apologizing to me for forgetting to pull down my panties. So I must have been really little since I didn't think of it myself.

I would guess she had extra clothes and such with her and the problem was solved, apparently not a big deal since mom can't remember it. But I still can. I have no idea why, but I do. Strange.

And sorry about pee-story for those sensitive folks out there. :-)

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Alexandras 1st birthday!

So... Today Alexandra turned 1 year old.

It's mindblowing. One year has FLOWN by! It feels like it wasn't that long ago I was at neonatal care worrying about her, and she was just days old.

Now she is one years old, walks around while holding on to things, laughs and "talks" (I need the baby-translator from Simpsons...). She is very active and happy most of the time. Very easy to bring around on trips and meet new people. She seems to be quite secure in herself and not afraid of things. Even though she wants mom and dad sorta around, she ain't afraid to explore areas when she's been there for a lil bit. Or to sit in a strangers lap, well... stranger to her, but friends and relatives of ours. She loves our cats, and crawls after them all the time! Skuld accepts her, while Verdandi is still a bit weary... I did notice today though that Verdandi is slowly relaxing around Alexandra to. Took a year, but I am confident. None of the cats have shown any aggression against Alexandra at all. And Alexandra is really good with the cats. When she does the baby/toddler petting motion (looks like she's about to hit the cats), me or

peting73 just says 'Pet carefully, Alexandra", and she does. She really does. She is very gentle with the cats for being so little.

She is a good kid/baby/toddler, and I am very proud of her already.

To the little birthday party here in our apartment, our HOME, we had quite a few guests! :-) MIL was the first to arrive... with a ton of gifts. Then

peting73's aunt and cousin came along. With more gifts. And his uncle by marriage. Then my darling best friend and Alexandras godmother

spicehobbit also came along with more gifts. And then my brother and mother to! With yet again MORE GIFTS! X-D

Oh yeah. Alexandra has been really spoiled today! LOTS of new toys today and a few clothing stuff. And something to save for when she gets older to. :-)

It was a lovely day all around, and Alexandra behaved wonderfully. She got to stay up 1 hour later than normal, but since there were so many people there and so many new toys, she hardly noticed. When we put her to bed though at around 8:30pm, she feel asleep so fast it was crazy! X-D

So yeah. I've had a great day.

peting73 did to. And so did all our guest, our family. This day. Was wonderful. :-)

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Birthday party, take one! Yay?

Tomorrow we are going to visit my mom and do a pre-celebration of Alexandra's birthday.

Pre-celebration, what you mean you might ask...

Well, my relatives are very lazy. It is apparently easier for US to do the two-hour trip to the area where THEY live (and mom) than it is for them to do the same trip to visit us. Hey. And here I thought it was the same no matter what way you went. :-/ Also, mom got a house. Gawd forbid you can have a birthday party for a baby-girl in an apartment... :-/

So we'll borrow mom's house and garden and have our selfs a little birthday party there.

It saddens me a little, because doing it this way means my relatives and

peting73's relatives never get the hang out. And that, quite frankly, sucks. :-/

So, I think we'll only do it this way this year. Next year, when she turns two, they bloody well have to suck it up and take that trip or not congratulate Alexandra at all. So there.

I feel kinda torn about it. :-(

On one hand, I want Alexandra to experience the HUGE crazy family gatherings I got to experience when I grew up.

But at the same time, we live HERE. This is our HOME. Why can't they visit us, when they expect us to visit them all the time? :-/

So, yeah. It'll be fun to meet all and all that this weekend, but I do feel very torn about the whole thing. :-/

Oh well.

At least there will be cake and cookies.

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Ma Birthday! :-D

So, the 19th this month I turned 36 years old. Ladies and Gents... I am officially old. X-D And should really stop fangirling young boys. *lol*

Anyway, it was JUST what I wanted. :-D Calm and nice. And lots of holy unhealthy food. X-D I'd baked two spongecakes, one with vanilla and poppy seeds and one with passion fruit in it, and some coconut muffins. And there were coffee and there were tea (for those like me who don't drink coffee like nearly everyone else in this country!) and for dinner we had swedish pancakes with yam! :-D So lots of sweet stuff got eaten!

peting73s aunt and family came over, of course! MIL to, naturally! And my darling mom! It was awesome! And Alexandra behaved great, which made the whole thing even better. :-D

I got gifts to, of course! It's not a huge pile of gifts, but still they are awesome in their own right. :-) I got a gift card from my MIL for pedicure/chiropody, which is something I've wanted to do a long time, since I've never done it. :-) Then from

peting73s aunt and her SO, I got another little charm for my Thomas Sabo bracelet! (THIS one!). It's really cute! From his cousin, I got a vanity case filled with nail polishes! X-D I am not joking! 14 of them in various colours! SO COOL! I am going to have a lot of fun with those, that's for sure! (Totally blaming my nail polish addiction to two things: Buying my Konad-stuff... and seeing

fyredancer post stuff...). From my mom I got some really REALLY rocking earings! :-D SKULL-earings! From a swedish brand called Rock By Sweden. They are SERIOUSLY cool! (THESE ones!) And from

peting73, the darling man, I got Sims 3 - Pets! WOHOO! Never played any Sims-game, so that should be fun! :-D I wished for it, so... :-)

So yeah, that was my birthday loot. :-D Not a bad one, if you ask me. ;-)

peting73's relatives and mom didn't stay that long. His cousin gets all edge and can't stay for long in one place, so they all left with her. Mom was a bit late, since she'd worked during the day, so she stayed until 11pm! o.O And then drove home for two hours! She's nuts! But I love her. She is a good driver though (if a bit fast), so I am not worried about her driving late and far. :-)

So, yeah... :-) My birthday. Soon time for Alexandras! :-D

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The little vacation-trip...

Argh! So behind on everything! o.O

I'll just split this up in a few posts...

So. Trip first. :-)

We went and stayed with mom for about a week, which was all kinds of awesome to be honest! :-D Not that we did that much, but it was nice to just get away from everything for a while. :-) Not to mention being spoiled. And Alexandra was the one that was the most spoiled. *lol* She got gifts from mom twice during 6 days... ;-) That should be quite telling! *grins*

And then there was mom's big ~~60th birthday party~~ barbecue party that she'd arranged for friends and family. :-D And it was SO MUCH FUN! I love taking a drink or have some wine and such at times, but I haven't really since Alexandra was born... and now I got my chance to! :-D So I spent that night slightly tipsy since there was so many people that brought wine, not to mention mom has quite the load standing around at home to. :-) So that evening was spent drinking, eating and just have a laugh! My mom and my uncles wife and my aunt get slightly insane when drinking wine, and this was NO exception! X-D Listening to those three, it is easy to see where I've learned it all... If I put it that way. ;-)

Loved hanging out with my brother to, since he spent all day that day at moms. :-D His kids where with their mother, and he didn't want to be alone, so he came over and helped out with mom's stuff for the party. :-) Not to mention he and

peting73 where the designated grill-masters. X-D

So that was all kinds of awesome!

Mom worked on Monday and Tuesday, so when she left home on Monday afternoon to work during the night, we all left for the neighbouring little town/village that is AWESOME during the summer. Hjo. It is a gorgeous place with a lot of hte old buildings left in the "city"center. :-) Not to mention the BEST icecream place EVER! So we spent our afternoon there.

Also, mom has THE BEST neighbours ever! She wants to get rid of all her flowerbeds and most of her garden paths. So one of her neighbours came over and did short work of one of the garden paths... so now grass will grow there instead and there won't be a sign left of it. :-) And then her garage is old and the walls aren't very good, so he has also promised her to fix the walls on it for her. So he started doing that on Tuesday... and worked really quickly to! Of course, he'll get some pay for it, but really. If mom didn't have all them AWESOME neighbours, she wouldn't be able to stay in her beloved house that dad fixed up for her (and us).

On Tuesday we left to go home, but made a stop to visit Mariell, my BELOVED cousin who is globetrotting all over the world! :-D She has now moved from Doha, Qatar to Muscat, Oman. Still working for the same spa-company, Essence Spa, just in another country. :-) Anyway, she had to come back to Sweden suddnely since her passport and visa ran out! OUPS! X-D So she'd just gotten home the day before when we visited her. :-) It was AWESOME to be able to give her a hug and just hang out like we used to do! And, of course, she was THRILLED to meet Alexandra properly to!

It was a great trip, filled of love and family and friends. :-D And not to mention relaxing. :-) Much needed. Alexandra behaved GREAT! And loved crawling around on moms big garden! Not to mention hunting mom's four cats... X-D

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A less than happy post, but...

Yeah, I just have to get this shit off my chest...

My worry levels spiked this winter, let me tell you... My brother... My beloved brother... He and his wife has had some serious troubles in their marriage since before Christmas... and longer then that... And then, when he called me before Christmas all falling to pieces? He told me she'd gotten an apartment of her own. Behind his back. *sigh*

Not to get into to it much, but safe to say it has brewed this. For a while. I mean, my brother is by no way innocent in all this. But he recognizes that. And he has gotten help through therapy and he also fixed family counseling that they both went to for a while and still do. He has REALLY worked on himself.

But to no avail. And now they've divorced. :-/ So. Damn. Sad.

I am not angry with my brothers ex-wife. Not at all. I just find the whole thing very sad. And I worry about their kids to. They'll live every other week with my brother and then with their mom.

I am worried about her to. There is so much... things that she is doing strangely. She ain't fucking my brother over, don't worry. But there are other things that she does that ain't making sense. Sometimes I think she has... kinda lost herself, if you get what I mean? *shakes head*

My brother is absolutely heartbroken. They meet at school when they were both 16, and she is the love of my brothers life. Still is. And he loves his kids more then anything. He's a wonderful father all around. So this has really broken him down.

He is slowly dealing with everything that comes with a divorce, and we call each other several times a week.

The strange thing is, before all this? Me and my brother called each other about once a month. We talked about an hour when we did, but that was about it. So despite all the sad, I am... in a way... happy we've grown closer to each other again. He says I am his big support right now, despite living 2 hours away from him. I am happy I can be there for him, I really am. He is my baby brother, and I do hope he'll live through this and come out stronger on the other side.

Tough times indeed. At moments like these I am glad I got my fathers patience and steady temper and my mothers stubbornness and strength and both their bluntness and honesty. Seriously. My parents rocked/rocks.

Just had to get that off my chest... :-P

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