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Day 10

In your own space, share your love for a trope, cliché, kink, motif, or theme. (Or a few!) Tell us what makes it work for you, and why it appeals to you so much. Talk about what you like to see in fanworks featuring that theme most. Feel free to include recs and examples!

OK, so… I almost don’t want to say. Which is horrible, because I’m pretty much kink-shaming myself. :-P If that is making sense.

Because I like darkfic. And I don’t mean just a little-spanking-so-called-darkfic. I mean down the rabbit hole absolutely horrible darkfic that could give you nightmares. That kind of darkfic.

It’s not written often, especially not in all fandoms. I think it depends on the fandom. Where darkfic is the ‘biggest’, if you could say that according to my experience, is in the Buffy-fandom. Because there’s vampires. And they survive anything and heal anything. (I’ve read fics where vampires have been cut to pieces. Literary. And been kept that way. Ehm…) So so much good darkfic in that fandom.

But to my surprise, once I learned how to use the fic warnings in various archives, there’s quite a lot of darkfic going on in the Tokio Hotel fandom to. Once you know HOW to look for them, they’re there. There’s more than you might think. And a lot of it is really good!

Not that much in the Pirates-fandom. Interestingly enough since there’s various variations of zombie-pirates… In the Pirates-fandom there’s, however, a lot of cliché fic! All the pirate-clichés you can think off! *lol* However, in the Pirates-fandom there’s quite a few fic where the writer has incorporated real historic people, pirates from history. Which is interesting. :-)

Oh, another fandom where you could find quite a bit of darkfic was in the Sons of Anarchy fandom, but that’s not so strange, is it? That whole TV-show was a darkfic in and off itself. *lol* Since the show has ended though there’s not much action going on in the fandom. A shame.

So… WHY do I like darkfic so much? I think it’s the same thing why I loved dark biographies when I grew up. I mean, I read some seriously dark stories when I grew up, apart from all the fantasy books I read. As an example two of my favorite books from when I was… 14 or 15 years old are Phantom by Susan Kay and And I don't want to live this life - A mother's story of her daughter's murder by Deborah Spungen, which should tell you a lot. :-)

And then there’s the little thing about my loving tru crime stories, and that’s pretty dark to, isn’t it? So I guess I just like dark stories, be it fiction, biographies or fanfic. :-)

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Day 1

In your own space, talk about why you're participating in Snowflake and, if you’ve participated in the past, how the challenge has affected you. What drew you to it? What did you take away from it? What do you hope to accomplish this year?

I've never participated before, but I've seen it around here and there. I never know what fandom to focus on though, since I've been in so many. But this year I decided to hell with it and to join in! :-D I'll just focus on whatever fandom I feel the most inspired for that particular post. :-)

What I hope it'll accomplish for me this year is to make sure I got used to post regularly in my journal again. After all these years, this has become a home of mine. I just don't always post. :-P I hope others will find it interesting to. Hopefully. I don't think my posts will be very long though. :-)

Day 2

In your own space, share a favorite memory about fandom: the first time you got into fandom, the last time a fanwork touched your heart, crazy times with fellow fans (whether on-line or off-line), a lovely comment you’ve received or have left for someone.

First time I got into fandom? Oh gawd.... Well, me and my best friend Yllytyg did fandomstuff without knowing it was that we were doing during the 1990's when we were watching Robin of Sherwood on TV and bonded over it. But we didn't have internet then, nor computers. And no connections to get a hold of any fanzines of any sort either.

The fandom I properly discovered online and that there were things called fanart and fanfic that was Xena the WarriorPrincess. I got a computer and everything then. So yeah, then I started to be active in a fandom.

My favorite fandom-memory must be the one and only convention I went to. A Xena convention at a hotel really close to Heathrow Airport in London. I got to meet some of the actors (not Lucy Lawless nor Renee O'Connor, but quite a few of my favorite villians...). But the best part about that con was that a lot of people from the board/forum I frequented daily back then had decided to meet up there. And we were from ALL OVER THE WORLD! So that was AMAZING and one of my favorite fandom memories. :-)

Day 3

In your own space, post recs for at least three fanworks that you did not create.

Knowing quite a few writers, I'm bound to hurt someones feelings. So I apologize beforehand if I didn't rec a work you think I should have.

Going through my bookmarks and cleaning them up, I was so happy to find this Robin of Sherwood fic. It remains an amazing story no matter how you look at it.

Another substitute for screaming - Robin of Loxley/Will Scarlet. Dealing with loss the outlaw way... It's.. somewhat dark with mayor character death and stuff, but yeah. Amazing. Just as old as the TV-show I'd guess, and still holds up well to this day.

Age of Unreason - You want something epic? I give you this. The world the writer builds in this is just... I have no words. It's dark. Extremly dark. And, of course, it's Spike who gets the bad end of the stick here. The pairings from the Buffy-verse are all over the place. I think she manages to get nearly all, fanon and canon and everything in between. But what sticks with me is the world she builds in this. It's a very long fic, but if you have time and the stomach (see: extremly dark), it's so worht it! Also, you need to friend glassdarklyuk to be able to read it.

Transition - I actually helped the writer with this. Not beta, I suck at grammar. But to iron out the story. And what a story it is... It centers around Georg, this story. Yeah, it's Tokio Hotel, so RP-slash and all. Anyway, this is again an extremly dark story, so beware of that. Transgender issues, dangers when it comes to gay clubs, rape drugs... There's just so much going on here. And the story is just out of this world. Do read it if you can stomach it!

Sugar I'm going down - A fic actually written for me. I know. I've had a few fics written for me in the Tokio Hotel fandom, and it is just as amazing every time! This is, again, very dark and deals with mental issues so beautiful. This whole fic is just... I have no words. None. Just read it. During all my active fandom-years, this is one of my absolut favorite fics, no joke.

When you're talking Tokio Hotel fanfic, there's a few writers that I just have to mention.

Snowstormskies - Who ended up a very dear friend of mine, and who writes emotion like I don't even know what. She really gets into the head off her characters.

Raiju What patience earns, King of Kings... Do I even have to say more? I've still to finish off King of Kings, because I just can't even... o.O

Steinsgrrl - What to say off her? She ran the fiction archive for quite a long time. She's been around in the fandom for very long to and is an all around amazing person and writer.

and last but not least

Zarlina - who is probably one of the most productive writers I know! And she's GOOD to!

And if I've forgotten any writers that I know, PLEASE forgive me!!!

Right on, I have a hole in a tooth that hurts like a motherfucker, so tomorrow morning there will be a visit to the dentist. Feel sorry for me? More fandom stuff tomorrow!

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I saw and meet Tokio Hotel in Stockholm!!!!

Oh my world... Where to even start? X-D

OK. Let's see if we can do this.

I worked Wednesday as usual (including stopping a fight in the library... again... wtf?). Since it hadn't been very fun to take Alexandra to daycare with achy leg and heavy bags, I decided that I'd go by cab the rest of the day. Which I did. From daycare and to work. And during my work-day I ordered a cab to come pick me up to and take me to the train station. Which went very well. :-)

And after a little wait, the train came and I went to Stockholm. Only had to change train once, so not much to tell about the trip itself. I bought first class tickets though, because that means more leg-room and a more calm relaxing setting. :-)

So I had a good trip to Stockholm. Calm, nice and relaxing. And when I got there, I found a cab to take me to the hotel. No issues there either.

And the hotel was absolutely lovely. LOVELY, I tell you! And the bed….. SO SOFT! Bliss!

Anyway, the day of the concert I took the chance to have a lovely sleep in, because I’m a mom and that is rare. Then I had a great hotel breakfast, thank you ever so. Really yummy.

I didn’t want to walk around to much, since I wanted to save my broken achy leg for the concert, but I wanted to buy a gift for Alexandra and one for Peting to, for letting me do this. Well, you get what I mean. ;-)

So I walked up the street next to the hotel, but there was no shops really there. Walking back to the hotel, I asked them about it, and they said if I took the bus to the shopping area right next to the Ericsson Globe, I’d get my fill. So I did. :-)

And bought a crafting kit for Alexandra (which we tried today) and a bobble head Darth Vader for [Bad username or unknown identity: ”peting73”], because he is a SUCKER for anything Star Wars. :-) He is probably the biggest Star Wars nerd I know. :-D

That done, I took the bus back to the hotel and my room. Taking a nap and resting my leg on a bunch of pillows to make sure it got a proper rest in preparation of the concert. :-) Was good I did!

I’d located where the venue was before my nap, and it took about… 5-10 mins to walk there… with my limp, so it was very close to the hotel. :-) I got there around 5pm. I got a VIP Humanoid ticket, and had gotten the information that we’d be let in at 5:30pm. That didn’t happen…

Rumours went around that the boys had been late with the previous VIP people, which in turn made everything late… :-P

So we had to wait nearly an extra hour. Them Tokio Hotel boys are notorious for being late, aren’t they?

Anyway, so we got let in by a guy with a Humanoid sign over his head, and the only ones by the stage are those that had paid more money for a better VIP ticket. Meaning I got VERY close to the stage! YAY!

And then more waiting. We had to wait for 1½ hour there! Standing at about the same spot! o.O Can you IMAGINE how my leg was doing at that point?!?!? I couldn’t feel my toes, put it that way…

But all that was forgotten when the concert started! :-D It was GREAT! Yeah, there were a lot of songs from the Dream Machine album, obviously. And I don’t like that album very much. BUT! There were A LOT of songs from Kings of Suburbia as well, and that just so happens to be my favorite album of theirs! :-D And the Dream Machine songs were far better live, to be honest.

It really was a great concert. The mood in the audience was awesome. Singing along and dancing. Bill did a great job of keeping the mood up in the audience, ‘dancing’ around on the stage and engaging with the audience. So did Tom and Georg, when they were down from that tower-thing they were on.

Gustav was obviously stuck behind his drums, and they were a bit to the right side of the stage. I wouldn’t say he was hidden behind speakers, but it was a bit odd a placement. *shrug* I get what they were trying to do. Change it up on stage. And it did work. I just missed having Gustav in the center… But I’m biased. He IS my favorite after all. :-) And I managed to get a few good shots of him, so there’s that! Especially during the drum-solo he and Tom had, which was AWESOME! So glad I managed to film some of that. It was incredible. And the drumming he did in the beginning. Drummers I tell you… *sigh*

Anyway, after the concert was over, the guy with the Humanoid sign showed up again. We asked how long we had, and he said 15 mins. So I hurried like hell to buy a tour-tshirt for me and a tour-crewneck for [Bad username or unknown identity: ”omgwtfskittles”], since she’d asked me to. Then hurried back just in time.

I figured we’d have to wait somewhere since the Tokio Hotel boys were probably sweaty as hell from the show and needed a drink and yeah… You know? And I was right. We were lead out and to a corner in the stairs, where we had to wait. Gladly I could sit down in the stairs there, because hooo boy… My leg HURT at this point.

And again, waiting… Then we were ushered to another spot, to wait some more. This time right outside a pair of doors. And according to those that had been at the pre show M&G it had been there you got to meet them. I found a folded table to lean on to get some weight off my legs, which helped, and then we waited again.

Eventually we got let into a room, that I think was used as a bar even if it wasn’t right then. There were a little stage there with four chairs and in front of that chairs in rows for us to sit on. We got told our dos and don’ts. We could ask the TH boys anything we wanted, it was up to them if they wanted answer. Just be respectful. (Makes sense.) We were NOT allowed to take photos or film them during the Q&A. I get that. It would be hella annoying for the boys otherwise, I can imagine.

So the questions started to be fired off. I can’t remember all. Some of the fans there were taking notes. One asked about the nakedness and possible vag in one of their new videos, which Bill just said they wanted a lot of naked skin that video. Another asked Gustav how it was to be a father and touring. He answered that it was tough to be away from his little one and to miss her progress and development. Bless him. I totally get you, Gustav.

I got to ask a question to! :-D I asked how they felt about having fans that are so much older then them. Sometimes twice their age. Since I can be quite self conscious about that myself. :-P Bill answered that, and said they loved all their fans (obviously), and that it didn’t matter what age they are. And he said that that is the awesome thing about music. That it connects people regardless of age. Then he asked how old I was to ask such a question. So I said 40 years old. And Bill said that I can’t be 40 years old, since I certainly don’t look it! And the other three agreed with him. Well, I said it was true I am 40 years old and thanked him very much and pretty much died of happiness right there. *LOL*

After that it was time for photographs. So everyone had to stand in line and put their things away in one end of the big room, which we did. Quite a few of the girls went nuts and started fixing with their makeup and what not. I checked mine and made sure I didn’t have lipstick on my teeth, but that was all. After a concert where you sing and dance, you can’t help but be a bit of a mess. ;-)

Then a looooong line formed. Dude. The patience and professionalism of the Tokio Hotel boys is amazing. They looked just as happy with each and every fan that came up to them. And this was not the first VIP M&G thing they’d done. And not the last. After a long concert. Wow.

Eventually though it was mine turn. My goal was to get a hug from Gustav. He’s the drummer and my favorite. I wanted to tell him so, since I know for a fact he doesn’t have a huge amount of fans among the band-fans. First you were getting a selfie and then you got lined up with the boys for a professional photo. It was very quick, since they boys know what they’re doing.

My turn I walked up to them, heart beating. (They’re really real!) Gustav was closest and came over to show where to stand. So I told him. Said he’d been my favorite of the band for years (so very true) and that I thought he was amazing. (Wanted to say more, but nerves and time-restraint!) He gave me one of them WONDERFUL smiles and said thank you very much! It sounded sincere. Before me most girls had wanted selfies with just the twins, so the G’s had to step aside a lot. Or just Bill. And for the professional photo, they wanted to have the twins in the middle to hold on to them. Me? I asked if Gustav and Georg would mind being in the middle and in the selfie with me? Sure! they both said. And Gustav gave me half a hug leading me to the mark on the floor. (DEAD, guys! SO DEAD!!!) Then at first Georg and Gustav didn’t know who would take the selfie (Tom usually does when it’s the whole band or just him and Bill.) After a moment though, Georg took my phone and snapped a selfie with me standing in the middle of my favorite boys! (My heart was probably somewhere on the moon by that point.) Then the twins stepped in to and the professional photo was taken. Me in the middle with Georg on one side and Gustav on the other, hand somewhere near my back as far as I could feel. (Did I mention very dead?) And then the twins on each side of them. After that they thanked me for coming to the concert and I left to the next in line could go.

It was all very fast, but man oh man… GOAL REACHED! It was an awkward half hug, but I HAD GUSTAV SCHÄFARS ARM AROUND ME! That boy got MUSCLE, yo!

My leg was an achey mess as I limped over and got the gift that was included in the Humanoid VIP package. A Dream Machine poster with all them boys signature on. And a scarf that said ‘HIGH AS FUCK’ on it. Apparently that’s something Bill said at some point. I’m a bad fan. I’m not sure when, why or how. It’s a nice quality scarf though! Will be great for winter!

I hung out a bit afterwards, outside the doors, with some other fans. Among other a sweet girl that had kept me company in the line before the concert. It was nice to geek out and squee together with others that would understand, you know? So that was awesome.

Eventually though I came to the conclusion I needed to return to the hotel or I wouldn’t be able to walk at all… And I’d gotten very tired after all that.

So I limped, even slower, back to the hotel. And thanked my lucky stars it was that close. *lol*

And even though I’d taken pain meds and was tired, I was to wired to fall asleep right away. I think I spent an hour or two sitting on Twitter and Instagram, just posting photos and short clips from the concert. Just to wind down. :-) After that though, I was able to fall asleep.

Next day I had a lovely morning, just taking it easy in the hotel having breakfast and packing. Didn’t stress even a little bit. :-) I’d ordered a cab in plenty of time, so when I’d gotten to Stockholm Central Station I still had to wait nearly an hour for the train. Which was nice, actually. I like being on train stations.

So yeah, that was my trip to Stockholm and seeing Tokio Hotel live and meeting them. :-D

Here’s the selfie with Georg and Gustav:

( Happy me with G's! )

And here’s the professional photo that was taken:

( Happy me with ALL Tokio Hotel boys! )

I actually think I look sorta nice in them! The boys look perfect as always, but no surprise there!

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OK. So I'm going to try and write this post that I've been trying to write for days. No joke. I didn't know how to start or how to word this, so bare with me. I have a lot of feelings.

I've been following Tokio Hotel since 2009. That's when I discovered them and fell headfirst into the fandom. Since then they've grown and changed A LOT. As they should! The boys in this band were SO YOUNG when they started out, and you're not the same person now that you were when you were 15, 16 and 17 years old. 12 years ago. So of course that would be reflected in their music!

And this, that they were so young starting out and you can really hear in their music how they grow up, test things and develop... that's what I think is so cool with this band! And I LOVE how far they've come musiclly and how they've developed further into electronic music. It's really their own sound, and I do think that's cool! Even if I sure liked the more rock music they did as young as well. For sure!

But. And here's a mayor but... This new album? Really a step back for them in my eyes. (Or ears?) I was so so excited when their new album was going to be released! Dream Machine! Sounded great! And they were releasing their tour before their album, which was odd maybe, but I bought both a regular ticket and a VIP one, because hell... I've been following them for 8 years at this point! (Oh gawd....) I pre-ordered the album to, and had only heard the two songs they'd released with music-videos on their website and YouTube channel. And those two songs gave me red flags already... I didn't like them much. :-/ Something New didn't really go anywhere... It just went on and on and I waited for a refrain or something, but nothing. A bit odd a piece of music. What If was better, and I loved the music-video for that one! But none of them got even close to the music-videos and songs that were released for Kings Of Suburbia, the album they released before Dream Machine.

And the problem with the song What If is something that goes through the entire album for me. I can't really hear when one song ends and the next begins! The only upbeat song on the album that is moderatly catchy is What If. The other songs is very low key, there's no other upbeat song. This is not an album that makes you happy or smile one second and then get all the feels the next, like Kings of Suburbia does.

Yes, I will compare this with Kings of Suburbia, because both of these albums have a very modern electronic feel to them which makes them very similar in that regard to me.

And I want to stress one thing. I DO NOT MIND THAT THEY'VE GONE MORE ELECTRONIC!!! I know a lot of fans dislike the direction the band has taken their music, but I don't at all. It's just this album that irks me.

There's just no upbeat song on this album, no happy song or playful song. Nothing like that at all. The whole album is just like a great big downer. And I have to wonder why? Why are the songs so similar to each other? Why is everything so sad and blue?

Let's not forget that it's 10 songs on this album. If you look at their previous albums, I do believe this is the shortest one. Why? It's well produced, they clearly show they know what the hell they do in a studio and with various music-instruments. But still. Why the blue mood? Why fewer songs? And why go on a tour with an album with fewer songs than any of their previous albums?

I just can't get my head around it.

One thing is for sure though, my heart plummeted when I listened to this album the first time. I was so, so, so disappointed. Unlike when I listened to Kings of Suburbia the first time and I giggled and danced in my seat, loving near to every song on that album. (Still do.) Both just as electronic, but oh so very different. And not in a good way.

Seriously, Tokio Hotel? What are you doing? And why? :-/

I don't know... This post is all over the place. I just wanted to somehow try to get my feelings down in writing. I'm seriously nervous about going to the concert in Stockholm now. Of course I'm nervous about meeting them to, but mostly I'm nervous that I won't enjoy their show or how the music sounds like live. :-/

One thing's for sure. This is the LAST TIME I buy one of their albums blind. Or a concert ticket blind. I'll listen to the music first, one way or another. I do not want to feel this disappointed again.

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Can I just say HOLY FUCKING SHIT IN THE OCEAN?!?!?!?! o.O Now I've been part of friending memes before, many times. But I've never EVER been a part of one that has taken off like this. My flist is BURSTING! Geezes, fuck! o.O

Excuse the language, but yeah... o.O Circling the wagon -friending meme rocked my socks off!

Anyway, so part of the deal was to make a post about myself, so here goes... I'll excuse my wordiness right away.

( So we begin.. )

( Education and work…. )

( Family... )

( Fandoms... )

( Hobbies... )

And I… think that’s it. Props to you if you got through all that. Told you I was wordy! X-D

If you got any questions, I’ll be happy to answer. :-) I really am an open book.

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It was Mothers Day in Sweden today. And I had a moderately good day. :-)

Sat up all night last night to finish off the post about ruchirahni's visit, obviously. ;-) Which has been done for quite a while, but I hadn't added the photos for it. But it felt good to get it posted. :-)

Been very busy at work though. Last weeks of school before summer holidays, and things are INSANE when you're a school-librarian. Try be a school-librarian when you're responsible for 6 schools(!)... And things get a little insane. Same thing when school starts. It'll get insane then to. Fun times. Not. :-P If I could skip the last few weeks before summer holidays and the first few weeks after summer holidays, then working as a school-librarian would be bliss. :-P

Anyway...

My insane summer continues. ruchirahni has been here to visit (which still blows my freaking mind, to be quite honest...) and on Friday I am going to see Mötley Crüe live in Sölvesborg on the Sweden Rock Festival. I'm 38 years old and I've never been to a music festival before, and now I'm going to one of the biggest festivals in Sweden... and I'll spend the night in a tent. Alone. X-D A very tiny tent, to be honest, so there's no room for more than me in it, but still. I MUST be nuts! X-D It'll be worth it though, since this will most likely be the last time ever that Mötley Crüe plays in Sweden what with splitting up after their world tour.

Sorry, Tokio Hotel. If you come to Sweden this year, I'll have to say no thanks. You're young. I'll go through hellfire to see you when you've played together for 30+ years. ;-)

Today we spent at the zoo, which you can see on my Instagram. Weather was... odd to say the least. At least it wasn't raining. :-P And we were all in a good mood. First time today that I managed to walk through the whole zoo without crutches. YAY!

It was after that that it became less fun. Of course peting73 was the one that wanted to go to the zoo the most... and in the end his back gave up on him and he didn't bring any painkillers... Because it was fine before we left. *sigh* Which ended with him being cranky as FUCK and almost impossible to talk to when we, out of necessity, had to do a quick stop for some grocery shopping on the way home. (Lunch for next week and such.) He'd promised me a delicious mushroom chantarelle risotto, but it takes time and is complicated to make, so I told him to just fuck it... which made him even crankier, so... That was less fun.

Once at home he took painkillers and just went to bed. A good thing, if you ask me. *grump* When he got up to make dinner though, and he did make me the risotto, he was in a MUCH better mood. Because well, painkillers. Which he should have taken way earlier... *sigh* I'm seriously considering having some of his painkillers in my bag as well. For my own peace of mind. :-P

So the day ended well at least. :-) Tomorrow it's back to the grind at work. OH! And I was offered to work full time after summer. Of course I said YES! It'll be busy as FUCK! But I hope it'll be worth it. :-D Despite the problems at that library, I like workign there. Quite a great deal. Better than working in the school-libraries in town. :-)

Now bedtime!

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Time to share some stuff again. Also, I've discovered that the questions that LJ has on their home-page. I've... never really thought about it before, but some of my LJ-friends have started to answer them, so... Well. Inspired. And why not? Especially the teddybear question sure inspired me and brought back a lot of sweet memories.

Other things that inspire is all the stuff my friends online share with me here and there. For serious. So much fun stuff! And then I save it in an open tab, forget it's there and forget to share it and suddenly I have a shitload of tabs open which makes my chrome a bit slow... Time to do something about that!

First some Tokio Hotel! Bare with me!

This is amazing. I mean, seriously! I would have loved to watch Feel It All Tour just for this! My favorite boys drumming away!

( Gustav, Georg and Tom on drums during Louder Than Love in Paris!!! )

Tokio Hotel and not, this guy is absolutely amazing! Mind blowing skill! No matter if you like Tokio Hotel or not you have to give this guy cred for his skill!

( Love who loves you back (Cover, A Cappella) )

And talking about music-videos, there's this. What with a kid of my own, I can just PRAY that I manage to raise her to be as open-minded as it's even possible. And vids like this? My heart just clench for the kid in this music-video...

( The Light by HollySiz )

This video is absolutely amazing. I see so many cool pole dancers online. It's not just dirty and kinky, it can be quite awesome to! And this video shows a bunch of women who tells us why THEY do pole dancing. Empowering... Show strength... So many reasons. I loved this video.

( Why I dance... )

As you probably are beyond aware of I hate 50 shades of Grey. I mean, I seriously hate that series of books. I do, however, love seeing things that mook them.

And this is one of those brilliant things mocking 50 shades of Grey. Pornstars. Telling you why 50 shades suck. And not in a good way. And why you should watch real porn instead. Absolutely brilliant. And hilarious at the same time. Who said pornstars didn't have a sense of humor. *lol*

( 5 reasons pornstars hate 50 shades of Grey )

This one is also quite awesome! A makeup tutorial for a 50 shades of Grey makeup. And, I have to say. The makeup looks quite nice. But what makes this whole tutorial is the narrating from the makeup artist. Absolutely brilliant! So cool makeup and a wonderful narration. Win-win!

( 50 shades of Grey makeup tutorial )

And now for something totally different. I know, since Peting told me that in Metal Gear Solid when playing that role playing game, you could have any kind of romantic relationships. Gay or straight. Which I found pretty cool. And then I stumbled upon this article about Dragon Age Inquisition. Apparently there's a transgender character in that game. Not playable, but still. He has a big role. And he... is a female to male transgender. Right, I thought. But then I looked at the clip in this article, and I have to admit. That seems to be a pretty cool character. To bad he isn't playable. He does have a decent fanbase though. I'm not surprised. ;-)

Read the article! And watch the clip! It's pretty cool!

Dragon Age Inquisition's Trans Character

Lastly I leave this. And this will have you crack up something fierce! You all know Helen Mirren, right? That is one FIERCE lady! SO AWESOME! I'm a huge fan. I love her so much! And the best part? Even though she is pretty much a Shakespearean actress with some serious roles behind her and being one of the big names in the industry... She is not afraid to make fun of herself. And that is EXACTLY what she is doing here with a huge smile on her face! I LOVED THIS! AND CAN NOT STOP LOOKING AT IT!!!

( Helen Mirren chats with Jimmy Fallon while sucking helium... )

And now, over and out!

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Alright. Gonna do this fandom meme that I've seen floating around, even if I am somewhat late to join in, but what the helll...

1. What's the worst fanfic you've ever written/have thought about writing?

I'm not a writer, never considered myself one. I do, however, have a Prompt-document where I collect ideas/bunnies or whatever you wanna call it. I sometimes throw them at writers I know or most often than not at various fests. And there are some of them that are... Pretty crazy. *lol* They'll never be written, most likely, but yes. There are some nuts stuff there. Especially when I stumble upon websites or links and then my mind starts working. I'll show two as examples:

42. Any pairing (NO twincest!)

There is surfing on the internet. There is living on two sides of the ocean. There are travels. There is boredom. There is times when one is so horny it hurts and your significant other is far away. Good thing then, eh, that technology has done some serious leaps and bounds in this day and age! Because with a little help from LovePalz, distance is no longer a problem…

LovePalz with commentary (feel free to take inspiration!): http://kseenaa.tumblr.com/post/46293135556/nanibgal-goddessofcheese-psdo-wugs


LovePalz website so you know it is all true. :-)
https://www.lovepalz.com/

43. Gustav/Anyone

Gustav has a sister. A sister that loves teasing the hell out of her little brother when she gets the chance. So when she stumbles upon these… she sends the link to her brother, who of course tell her to go fuck off… but secretly keeps the link and buys a pair… Because really… It’s just too brilliant. And his significant other has NO complaints after an evening playing around with these! In fact, he wants a chance to use them to…

Vibrating drumsticks…: http://www.shopinprivate.com/phil-varone-sex-stix.html

Seriously, Internet? What do you DO to my brain?

2. Admit to a kink you're ashamed you like.

I am not ashamed per say about any kinks, really. But the one that is most rarely written and one can get some raised eyebrows at... is daddy-kink. And I really really love that. Also, I have a HUGE thing for darkfic with gore and all the trimmings, and that... can cause a few raised eyebrows as well. Especially since I can NOT watch horror-movies without getting nightmares. I know. Makes no sense what so ever.

3. Copy paste a line from the first smutty fanfic you wrote or fess up to a sexual fantasy you have about a character.

I don't write. I only cheat a little in drabbles. And I do a lot of RP where there's smut galore. But fic-wise? Well... Let's see if I can find a drabble that has smut in it. An early one. And, of course, the first drabble with smut in it is a dark one. And a crossover one, True Blood/Tokio Hotel.

Throwing the boy over his desk, Eric squeezed himself before pulling the boys shorts down... Those fucking eyes always got to him... Can’t have that. And he had such a nice body... A strong body. He would probably last longer than most... Not caring about preparing him, Eric pushed in... It always got a sound out of him, and he wanted to hear him...

“Gah! Oh gawd... SHIT! Ah... Fuck...”

And there it was... Eric smirked a bit, smelling the boys blood in the air... Leaning over him, he licked his neck, feeling the pulse thrum hard under the thin skin... Biting his neck next to an old scar, Eric could feel how the boy got more frantic under him, the pain more or less forgotten... mixed with pleasure now... Such sweet delicious blood... Tinged with pain, fear and pleasure... Just the right mix.

“No... Yes... Geezes, PLEASE!!!”

Not even touching him, Eric just let go of the wound and whispered in the boys ear. “Come.” And he did. Hard. Marking his desk. Again. The way his warm body clutched around him, more or less pulled Erics own orgasm out of him... And he filled the boys bleeding ass silently, nearly pushing both boy and desk across the room...

Shut up.

4. Have you ever read or written RPS/RPF?

I'd say Tokio Hotel counts. It's the only fandom where I've read RPS.

5. Most shameful ship?

I'm not ashamed of any ship I've enjoyed reading. I usually go for the rare or odd ones.

6. Ever been at the center of fandom drama?

Yeah, or at least RP-drama. Big community of players in the Buffyfandom when there was a lot of RP going on in said fandom. Was part of a whole community of players then. Mod asked for help from me. Then blamed all the problems in the game on me. All other roleplayers believed her. Things were hell for awhile and I didn't do any RP for... at LEAST 6 months or so. Not to fun, no.

7. What is your fandom guilty pleasure?

I have no idea what they mean here... Guilty pleasure? Roleplaying as a gay man maybe? I don't know...

If you have a better idea, let me know what I could answer here... Really. Suggestions are welcome.

8. Share something you did in fandom that you're embarrassed about.

I bashed another fandom without meaning to once. To me, it felt like I was drowning and got said fandom pushed at me all the time. "Like this!" "You have to like that!" "You gotta see this!" And it got to much for me and I kicked back just to get people to stop already. It wasn't very nice of me, I know. But hey... Live and learn, I guess.

9. Describe the first time you read a smutty fanfic. What ship was it and what kinks were involved?

A long time ago. And not even in Sweden. It was during my time in the US that I discovered the Xena-fandom and started reading fanfic. I can't pinpoint exact day and fic, but... I am 100% sure it was Xena/Gabrielle. I think there was bondage and whips involved. (It's Xena, come on...) And maybe some voyeurism as well, not 100% sure. So I started my fanfic-reading career with femme-slash.

10. Any fandoms you'd hate to admit you were a part of?

Nope. Not ashamed of any of them. Have a list:

Robin of Sherwood, Xena the Warriorprincess, Buffy the Vamprieslayer, Pirates of the Caribbean, Tokio Hotel, Sons of Anarchy...

11. Just how often do you think about your favorite characters getting down and dirty?

Considering I usually roleplay my favorite characters in smutty (more or less... most often then not more...) settings... You don't even wanna know.

12. Someone found your delicious account/bookmarks/AO3 account or however you keep track of your favorite fics. What's the one fic you're going to be most humiliated about?

Probably some daddy-kink fic... or the one with necrophilia. Yeah. Any of those.

13. Ever been caught reading smut/writing smut/drawing smut/looking at smutty drawings?

Peting's computer is right next to mine, so I'd say yes. And he looks and comments sometimes. Yes, he is very straight. Yes, he thought looking at gay porn was disgusting when he first meet me (although never had anything against gay-people... just didn't wanna see.). And then, well... he meet me. He is so used to it now he don't even raise an eyebrow.

14. What would your parent/guardian/family friend think if they saw your tumblr LiveJournal?

Peting: "Still the same fandom? Same old, same old... What does she wanna know about the male anatomy today?"

Spicehobbit: "RPS? AAAAH! My eyes!" *beat* "Where's the Les Misarables post...?"

Mom: "So this is what it actually looks like? Interesting..."

Brother: "You're nuts."

Had my father lived he'd have calmly told me to get out of the house more.

15. Oh shit you croaked without getting rid of the fandom stuff you saved to your computer. What's your next of kin or friend going to find when they turn on your computer?

They'd find a very orderly set of files and subfiles. So it's very easy to find on my comptuer. Photos, fanart, fanfic... The only thing I've hidden is my hentai-folder. *cough* So anyone would have to work a little to find that one. Hopefully they won't and I'll be able to stop anyone from looking in that deep dark pit.

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I rewatched Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides the other day. Well, I've rewatched all four of them since I ended up in a roleplaying Will Turner, cursed Captain of the Flying Dutchman in a RPG (slashed with Dean Winchester from Supernatural. Yep. It works.). And I LOVE and adore the first three movies! Well, my favorites being Dead Man's Chest and At Worlds End, what with the story-arc of Will Turner and the AWESOMENESS that is The Flying Dutchman and crew! (Yes, I fangirl a ship. Shut up.)

But the last movie, On Stranger Tides? It just don't... have the the same feeling. The same heart. Everyone just says that it's just because there's no Will Turner in it that I don't like it. And yeah, that's partly the reason, but not all.

I mean, I don't mind to much the fact there's no Will Turner in it.

No. What I do mind, however...

Is that Will Turner's and Elisabeth Swan's story arcs, so tightly woven together with Jack Sparrow's story arc... is totally ignored. When watching the forth movie, it's like you can just forget everything that happened in the first three, like they didn't matter. And THAT... is what bothers me the most. And I doubt that'll improve if/when the fifth movie arrives...

And now I've ranted about that. Just had to get that off my chest.

Talking about fandoms though, I have started working with a brilliant layout-maker to make a layout for tokiohotelslash. It'll cost me a bit from my own pocket, but hey... I think it's worth it. That place needs some loving. :-) And I can't wait to see what she'll come up with, since she does both coding and graphics. Gonna be fun! :-)

That's that about fandoms.

Now to the reason for my absence, if anyone even cares...

I've felt a bit low, if you will. Because I've had some serious troubles with the unemployment fund. I mean, I do qualify for support so should get money from them. BUT!!! And this is what had me so bothered...

Because I worked in June 2012. Like, mayorly pregnant and close to when Alexandra was born. I only worked in the big City Library for three hours that day. The only day that month. And then, a month and a week or so later, Alexandra was born. And my life as a new mom and getting used to that started.

Thing is. I never reported in those hours. I never got paid for them, since the finance department / payroll never ever got my paperwork. That also meant that I couldn't get a certificate of employment...

This, as it showed, got me in some serious troubles with the unemployment fund. :-/

Because they NEEDED that certificate of employment or I wouldn't get ANY money from them. They had ALL the paperwork they needed to, and had doublechecked with all the finance departments / payrolls of every job I've had these last years, since that is what they do. And when doing that, they noticed one certificate of employment was missing.

Now.

That meant I had to hand in my report on them hours to the finance department / payroll... more than one year late. Since I did the job in June 2012. And I had to have my then boss at the City Library sign it. She had no problems doing that. There were records of me working said hours at the library. So she did.

Then I called the finance department / payroll again telling them paperwork is on the way! At which point they told me it wasn't certain they COULD get me in their records since it was so long ago, and it's a new year and all that... But that they would try and I just had to wait since they went through all the paperwork for those hired by the hour in the mid/end of the month.

Which left me in limbo, pretty much, and living of peting73. He don't mind, but all this trouble left me feeling very down, I have to say.

And then there was this trouble with LJ and ALL the drama that came with it since there are too many people in too many fandoms that don't think but just spread rumors and... Yeah. That to pulled me down. (Here's some info on that issue, btw. From staff. In the USA, if that makes you feel better: Info from markf HERE.)

So I pretty much stopped reading on LJ. Stopped posting. Stopped reading fanfic. Stopped everything. Except chatting with my friends. Roleplaying with them. And helping them with THEIR fic. Because I just couldn't deal with all the rest.

LJ, fandom, fanfics... roleplaying. It's supposed to be fun, and it wasn't. I am now slowly, ever so slowly, getting back to it. It still feels fun. And I hope it'll continue to be that.

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It's been a BUSY day today... o.O Wednesdays will be very very busy for us from now on out.

Because during the day, Alexandra is at the daycare center from 8am-1pm. Then home, and pack and prepare dinner. And then we leave for baby-swimming class at the swimming bath downtown between 4:25pm-4:55pm... She likes it, but damn is Alexandra exhausted after such a day.

Apparently, so am I. Because I am absolutely exhausted today. And let's not forget that my period started today bringing with it my menstrual cramps from HELL!*collapses in a pile*

While Alexandra has been at the daycare center yesterday and today I've been doing paperwork. URGH! I've ignored these piles of papers for too long, and much of it needs to get done ASAP if I am to get any help from the unemployment fund. So yeah. No choice. And it's A LOT!

But to make it a little bit more fun I've been watching movies. I borrowed two movies from the library that I watched yesterday and today, and I can whole heartedly recommend them both.

The first one that I watched yesterday was heart wrenchingly sad. And very beautiful. Boy in the striped pyjamas. I HIGHLY recommend it.

( Boy in the striped pyjamas trailer here! )

The other one, that I watched today was Searching for Sugar Man. And all I have to say to that one is... What an incredibly life story! And it's all true to! WOW!

( Searching for Sugar Man trailer here! )

I've been listening to that mans music all day long...

Which is still a good but sucky day. Try that on for size. :-P

My menstrual cramps are fucking me over like no tomorrow, but it's been fun to. Even though paperwork is seriously boring, it is still nice to sit there with your cup of tea by the TV with all them papers scattered around you without my daughter destroying them... Peace and quite. My cats, my papers, my phone and my TV. Until I get hired by the hour or get a more permanent job, that will most likely be what I'll be doing while Alexandra is at daycare. And maybe some housework to, who knows? :-)

I am still working on that mod-work for tokiohotelslash. I have started to go through all 900+ members in the members list. To check if there's any suspicious journals there. I started at... 968 members, I think? I am now down to 930 members. I send a PM-message (or comment) to each and everyone that I delete as members. ONE has asked to be a member again, since her empty LJ was only used to read fic. :-) Which is fine! But hard for me to see when I just check the journal. ;-) Anyway, telling that it has just been one. :-P I've gotten halfway through the letter C. This WILL take time. But I am confident I'll finish it now when I've started. It's not hard since it's easy to find all info needed on LJ's profiles. It's just dull work. :-P

Currently I am the only mod/owner of the community. But I might have a mod in the making. If she got the time for it. We'll see. It's always nice to have someone to discuss with. I don't mind doing the dull/heavy work after that. :-)

Anyway. Exhausted, so I'll just skip the mod-work tonight, and go to bed, I think... *HUGE YAWN*

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