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KSena

July 2018

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This is KSena

Usually a friendly sort. Be nice to me, and I am nice to you. Here I ramble on about me, life, work and fandoms. I am a fan of Robin of Sherwood, Xena: Warrior Princess, Buffy: the Vampire Slayer, Pirates of the Caribbean, Tokio Hotel and Sons of Anarchy. I don't apologize for anything I write here. This is my mind. And you entered it. Welcome.

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I am home sick today. Ugh. Every time I get sick, in having a cold, it effects my throat. Everytime. I sound like shit (if you follow me on Instagram/Snapchat you've heard my horrible voice.) It started on Sunday when we were at my cousin and mom. And then it just got worse and worse... :-P Monday and yesterday was really really bad. I was really short of breath and it... "whistled"... when I was breathing? And it was hard to breath. Not to the point I felt a need to go to the ER, but it was still not very fun. And I was coughing. SO MUCH! So now my ribs ache. :-P And I had a fever. Because why not. It's a good thing the kids/teens are off school this week what with Easter, or I would have felt horribly guilty as well. Bah. But as it is, no school this week so I can be at home and get well in peace.

Yesterday though I'd taken a day off and had planned to go shopping with Alexandra. And we did! But man, my breathing was so bad when we came home I had to sit down and focus on my breathing for a moment when we came home. After that though, I've just taken it easy. Taking care of me. I know I'm bad at that. But I get when I'm beaten by germ. *raises fist at fucking germs*

Anyway, since I'm home anyway, I'll just finish off this challenge that I started. I'm late as all hell, but I WILL FINISH IT DAMMIT!!!

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Day 11

Share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life


Oh dear... This is a hard one to answer, since I've been around for quite a lot of years. *LOL* Old farts unite! I'm allowed to call myself that when I'm 40, right? ;-)

Anyway, well... If I go to books I've reread the most, I'd say there's a few series that kind of changed my mind. That I can say opened my mind and set my imagination on fire when I was young.

First off there's CS Lews Narnia series. It was the first fantasy-series I read, and it was very much an AHA-moment for me when I read them. I was... 11-12 when I read them the first time, I think. And when I reread them today, I still enjoy them (although I see the issues today to... Because there are quite a few.)

Then there's The Hobbit by JRR Tolkien. NOT The Ring Trilogy, actually. To be quite honest, I think they're boring. But The Hobbit I love! Same thing there, it just again showed the width of the imagination for me.

And then there's all the comics I've read through the years.

Donald Duck and C/O is the first comic I ever got a subscription on when I was 6 years old. I'm still subscribed to it. Get a comic in the mail once a week. I can't imagine a Friday without it, to be honest. :-)

And then there's Elfquest. I found the first two issues in a corner in the public library, broken and worn, but they spoke to me and I could NOT get enough of them! They stopped publishing them in swedish, but I now have nearly everything published in english. I don't know what it is with that comic, but I can not get enough of it. When I was young I saw one thing when reading it and as an adult another. Pretty incredible.

When it comes to movies and TV-show, the first one that really knocked me out was... Xena The WarriorPrincess. I do remember that there was two things with Xena. One: There's a woman that's far tougher than any man! And Two: She was the bad guy first!

Then there's Buffy, and it's the same thing there. A bad ass WOMAN in the lead. And vampires. Which I've always had a thing for. Just like with the others it was one of those AHA-moments.

I think all off these gave me AHA-moments. I could go on, I suppose, but these are the main ones. :-)

Day 12

In your own space, create a fanwork. Make a podfic, an icon, a sketch, a meta, or a rec list. Arts and crafts. Cross stitch. Draft an essay about a particular medium. Put together a picspam or a fanmix. Write a review of book you love, a ship manifesto, a you-should-be-listening-to-this-band essay. Create something.


I'm not a contributer to fandoms, so I don't have anything in particular. I just read, watch and listen. :-P But I do try to comment all the things that I do enjoy. Especially fanfic, for some reason. And fanart. Because that's people that write/draw something they are passionate about, and they should know there are more people that are passionate about the same thing.

I did create a list about my favorite YouTube channels once, I guess that's as close to something I've done. :-P

Day 13

In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private.


My goal is to just do what makes me happy. If you're in a fandom, or a fan of something/someone that does not make you happy, then why do you do it? So yeah. I'm not going to force it. I'm always so tired after work anyway, so I don't even have energy to talk to friends. So why should I do/read/watch anything that just makes me sad or upset me? I mean, really? My time is worth more than that.

Day 14

In your own space, create your own challenge. Whatever your challenge is, and have fun with it!


My challenge to any writer and/or artist is to write/draw a character that is the least popular in your fandom. Try it. Maybe you end up like it.

Challenge for me is to be more social. To dare to be online and talk to people again. And not be ashamed if I end up zoning out. It's fine to do that, even if whoever I talk to have to remind me of their existence. I'm a 40 year old mom working full time. I'm allowed to zone out in the evenings.

Day 15

In your own space, write a love letter to Fandom in general, to a particular fandom, to a trope, a relationship, a character, or to your flist/circle/followers. Share your love and squee as loud as you want to.


Dear fandom,

Without you I would not have discovered so many things about myself. Without you I would have been so lonely. Without you I would not be who I am today. Without you I would not have so many friends for life. And for all that and more, I will be eternally grateful.

Yours truly
// KSena

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Day 10

In your own space, share your love for a trope, cliché, kink, motif, or theme. (Or a few!) Tell us what makes it work for you, and why it appeals to you so much. Talk about what you like to see in fanworks featuring that theme most. Feel free to include recs and examples!


OK, so… I almost don’t want to say. Which is horrible, because I’m pretty much kink-shaming myself. :-P If that is making sense.

Because I like darkfic. And I don’t mean just a little-spanking-so-called-darkfic. I mean down the rabbit hole absolutely horrible darkfic that could give you nightmares. That kind of darkfic.

It’s not written often, especially not in all fandoms. I think it depends on the fandom. Where darkfic is the ‘biggest’, if you could say that according to my experience, is in the Buffy-fandom. Because there’s vampires. And they survive anything and heal anything. (I’ve read fics where vampires have been cut to pieces. Literary. And been kept that way. Ehm…) So so much good darkfic in that fandom.

But to my surprise, once I learned how to use the fic warnings in various archives, there’s quite a lot of darkfic going on in the Tokio Hotel fandom to. Once you know HOW to look for them, they’re there. There’s more than you might think. And a lot of it is really good!

Not that much in the Pirates-fandom. Interestingly enough since there’s various variations of zombie-pirates… In the Pirates-fandom there’s, however, a lot of cliché fic! All the pirate-clichés you can think off! *lol* However, in the Pirates-fandom there’s quite a few fic where the writer has incorporated real historic people, pirates from history. Which is interesting. :-)

Oh, another fandom where you could find quite a bit of darkfic was in the Sons of Anarchy fandom, but that’s not so strange, is it? That whole TV-show was a darkfic in and off itself. *lol* Since the show has ended though there’s not much action going on in the fandom. A shame.

So… WHY do I like darkfic so much? I think it’s the same thing why I loved dark biographies when I grew up. I mean, I read some seriously dark stories when I grew up, apart from all the fantasy books I read. As an example two of my favorite books from when I was… 14 or 15 years old are Phantom by Susan Kay and And I don't want to live this life - A mother's story of her daughter's murder by Deborah Spungen, which should tell you a lot. :-)

And then there’s the little thing about my loving tru crime stories, and that’s pretty dark to, isn’t it? So I guess I just like dark stories, be it fiction, biographies or fanfic. :-)

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Day 9

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator.


Help? I'm not a creator, I'm a consumer when it comes to fandoms. I really am.

My current obsession, as I've said, are YouTube vids where fans discuss various things.

But I've read tons and tons and tons of fanfic previous years and years involved in fandoms. And I did try to write as well.

And what I've learned is I was the best at writing quick drabbles. In specific What-If-drabbles. So I did that a lot for a while there.

I did try to do a writing-challange once, which produced a bit of drabbles for sure, that were just a little longer. In the Buffy fandom I mostly wrote them short drabbles.

I have written ONE fanfic, a little bit longer smutty one, but just one. So there's that.

And I've written in so so so many roleplaying games. (During the height of the Buffy fandom, I even got awarded as the best roleplayer in a couple of games...)

Anyhow, I am not sure what to link to, so I'll just link to my tag My Fanfic, and you can cruise along there.

Also, here's the one and only sorta proper fanfic I've written to. It was betad and everything! It takes two

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Day 8

In your own space, share a favorite piece of original canon (a TV episode, a song, a favorite interview, a book, a scene from a movie, etc) and explain why you love it so much.


Oh lord... I've been in A LOT of fandoms and there's so many amazing moments in all of them.

But I'll actually go with a moment that really hit me in the gut and turned me into a proper fangirl instead of just 'liking' something.

And that's the ending of Pirates of The Caribbean At Worlds End.


Well, not only the ending but from the battle in the maelstrom and onwards.

Can you guess I have a thing for Will Turner yet?

Anyway, let's see if I can get vids for this. Sit back and get ready. And if you haven't seen said movie, this might be confusing. And if you haven't seen the first three Pirates movies, what the hell have you been doing? Go watch them!

The Big Bad in the movie is the company The East India Trading Company. Lead by Lord Cutler Beckett. He wants the company to rule the sea, and by doing so he manages to steal (through a lot of... action and strange happenings in the previous movie) the heart of Captain Davy Jones. He is the Captain of The Flying Dutchman. Once a lover of the sea goddess Calypso, he was made immortal by her and given the task of shipping the dead to the afterlife and being able to be with her. She is as fickle as the sea however, so the one day he had on land every ten years, she was not there. And Davy Jones turned into a serious monster of the sea. Unstoppable and cruel. Of course, having his heart you can rule over him, hence Lord Beckett being happy to have it. The only thing that can kill Jones is by stabbing the heart, so he does pretty much anything to keep it safe... You can imagine what Lord Beckett threatens the heart with...

The pirates does not like this, they want the freedom the seas give. And so fights and plots against The EITC and Lord Becket and Jones. Which in the end ends up in a great big battle scene... in the midst of a maelstrom.

(There's of course A SHIT TON more going on, but let's keep it simple. The plots of these movies are never simple.)

Will Turner and Elisabeth Swan gets married in the midst of that crazy battle in the midst of the maelstrom in probably the best wedding scene ever made!

You may kiss... You may kiss... JUST KISS!!! )

Everyone are after Captain Davy Jones heart, Will to free his father from the Flying Dutchman and Captain Jack Sparrow to gain immortality and sail the seas forever.

Will's father, Bootstrap Bill (played by Stellan Skarsgård to perfection), has been driven insane by the ship and fights his own son. Will wins (he is a hell of a fighter) and leaves the knife he got from Bill with him, saying he won't fight him.

Meanwhile Jack fights Davy Jones in one really cool fight scene! Gotta love Bill Nigh and the way he plays Jones!

So much crazy dangling from ropes... so much rain... )

Jack and Davy drops the chest with Davy Jones heart and Will goes for it, just to be stopped by Davy Jones himself. As does Elisabeth. And they both fight Davy Jones, but he is far superior then the both of them. He is, after all, immortal and any harm they give him heal immediately.

Davy Jones focus is his heart in his chest, stabbing the heart in the chest is the only thing that can kill him even if the one that does so will take his place and be magically bound to the ship The Flying Dutchman...

Jones knocks out the both of them threating to kill Will having his sword to Will's chest, and well... this happens. I'll just let this clip stay right here, because it guts me every time I see it.

Ah. Love. A dreadful bond. And yet, so easily severed... )

Getting chills watching that, even after all these years...

So the crew of the Dutchman make Will their Captain by literary ripping Will's heart out of his chest, placing it in The Chest and therefore binding Will to the Dutchman for ever... or until someone stabs his heart... (Note that it's Will's father Bill that does the deed with Will's own knife...)

As it turns out, he takes to the role quite well. And helps Jack, Barbossa and the crew of the Black Pearl to literary blast the big bad guy Lord Beckett and his ship to smithereens winning the freedom for all pirates to rule the seas!

It's just... business... )

After the battle, Will has a very touching moment with his father Bill. Will did reach his goal. He did free his father. Even if the prize was very high, which they talk about to.

On the wheel then... Mr Turner... )

But Elisabeth, you say? Well, the Captain of the Flying Dutchman has one day where he can step foot on land every ten years... And also his first day, as it turns out.

Bring your napkins. Let's have another scene, because Will and Elisabeth gets a chance to consummate their marriage as it were... until the Dutchman demands her captain.

It's always belonged to you...  )

*sniff* Yeah, so they got their one day and then Will is gone, leaving Elisabeth alone. She's a bit of a badass though, since she managed to end up the Pirateking earlier in the movie, so I'm quite sure she was doing good during those ten years.

In the scene after the credits she sure looks it... and Will must have done a good job on that beach... because there's a son! And how happy Will is, Elisabeth must have been faithful those ten years, as she had to be or it would have ended badly for Will.

Ten years later... )

So how many napkins did you need? I went through two... I always get so sniffly when I think off Cursed Captain Will Turner and his fate.


Right so, all this... this is what turned me into a proper and raving fangirl over the Pirates franchise. I like the character Jack Sparrow well enough, but it's Will Turner that really gets to me every time. And there were SO MANY theories about how the curse worked, what Will's fate was during those ten years, what Elisabeth was doing, how the Flying Dutchman worked, how their son grew up... The discussions were ENDLESS!!! It's STILL discussed to this day, even after there being two more movies. The fourth one was pure SHIT, and I pretend it never happened... But the fifth one, now... They did find their way back a bit to the whole mood from the first three and it really felt more like it belonged, you know? Also, WILL TURNER WAS BACK! And hey ho, his soon Henry ended up really cool. So I can honestly recommend that one.

See the first three, skip the fourth, and watch the fifth. And enjoy. Pure fun and dramatic and cool pirates. Ignore the big plotholes and enjoy the rest. ;-)

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Day 7:

In your own space, create a love meme for yourself. Let people tell you how amazing and awesome and loveable you really are.


I had to look up what a love meme was… Is that sad or what?

This feel extremely weird, but… If you think I deserve any good words, let me know?

Meantime to all my old and new friends, have a HUG!



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