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KSena

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This is KSena

Usually a friendly sort. Be nice to me, and I am nice to you. Here I ramble on about me, life, work and fandoms. I am a fan of Robin of Sherwood, Xena: Warrior Princess, Buffy: the Vampire Slayer, Pirates of the Caribbean, Tokio Hotel and Sons of Anarchy. I don't apologize for anything I write here. This is my mind. And you entered it. Welcome.

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I rewatched Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides the other day. Well, I've rewatched all four of them since I ended up in a roleplaying Will Turner, cursed Captain of the Flying Dutchman in a RPG (slashed with Dean Winchester from Supernatural. Yep. It works.). And I LOVE and adore the first three movies! Well, my favorites being Dead Man's Chest and At Worlds End, what with the story-arc of Will Turner and the AWESOMENESS that is The Flying Dutchman and crew! (Yes, I fangirl a ship. Shut up.)

But the last movie, On Stranger Tides? It just don't... have the the same feeling. The same heart. Everyone just says that it's just because there's no Will Turner in it that I don't like it. And yeah, that's partly the reason, but not all.

I mean, I don't mind to much the fact there's no Will Turner in it.

No. What I do mind, however...

Is that Will Turner's and Elisabeth Swan's story arcs, so tightly woven together with Jack Sparrow's story arc... is totally ignored. When watching the forth movie, it's like you can just forget everything that happened in the first three, like they didn't matter. And THAT... is what bothers me the most. And I doubt that'll improve if/when the fifth movie arrives...

And now I've ranted about that. Just had to get that off my chest.

Talking about fandoms though, I have started working with a brilliant layout-maker to make a layout for [livejournal.com profile] tokiohotelslash. It'll cost me a bit from my own pocket, but hey... I think it's worth it. That place needs some loving. :-) And I can't wait to see what she'll come up with, since she does both coding and graphics. Gonna be fun! :-)

That's that about fandoms.

Now to the reason for my absence, if anyone even cares...

I've felt a bit low, if you will. Because I've had some serious troubles with the unemployment fund. I mean, I do qualify for support so should get money from them. BUT!!! And this is what had me so bothered...

Because I worked in June 2012. Like, mayorly pregnant and close to when Alexandra was born. I only worked in the big City Library for three hours that day. The only day that month. And then, a month and a week or so later, Alexandra was born. And my life as a new mom and getting used to that started.

Thing is. I never reported in those hours. I never got paid for them, since the finance department / payroll never ever got my paperwork. That also meant that I couldn't get a certificate of employment...

This, as it showed, got me in some serious troubles with the unemployment fund. :-/

Because they NEEDED that certificate of employment or I wouldn't get ANY money from them. They had ALL the paperwork they needed to, and had doublechecked with all the finance departments / payrolls of every job I've had these last years, since that is what they do. And when doing that, they noticed one certificate of employment was missing.

Now.

That meant I had to hand in my report on them hours to the finance department / payroll... more than one year late. Since I did the job in June 2012. And I had to have my then boss at the City Library sign it. She had no problems doing that. There were records of me working said hours at the library. So she did.

Then I called the finance department / payroll again telling them paperwork is on the way! At which point they told me it wasn't certain they COULD get me in their records since it was so long ago, and it's a new year and all that... But that they would try and I just had to wait since they went through all the paperwork for those hired by the hour in the mid/end of the month.

Which left me in limbo, pretty much, and living of [livejournal.com profile] peting73. He don't mind, but all this trouble left me feeling very down, I have to say.

And then there was this trouble with LJ and ALL the drama that came with it since there are too many people in too many fandoms that don't think but just spread rumors and... Yeah. That to pulled me down. (Here's some info on that issue, btw. From staff. In the USA, if that makes you feel better: Info from [livejournal.com profile] markf HERE.)

So I pretty much stopped reading on LJ. Stopped posting. Stopped reading fanfic. Stopped everything. Except chatting with my friends. Roleplaying with them. And helping them with THEIR fic. Because I just couldn't deal with all the rest.

LJ, fandom, fanfics... roleplaying. It's supposed to be fun, and it wasn't. I am now slowly, ever so slowly, getting back to it. It still feels fun. And I hope it'll continue to be that.

This entry is crossposted between LJ and DW. Comment where you are comfortable.
Yeah, I just have to get this shit off my chest...

My worry levels spiked this winter, let me tell you... My brother... My beloved brother... He and his wife has had some serious troubles in their marriage since before Christmas... and longer then that... And then, when he called me before Christmas all falling to pieces? He told me she'd gotten an apartment of her own. Behind his back. *sigh*

Not to get into to it much, but safe to say it has brewed this. For a while. I mean, my brother is by no way innocent in all this. But he recognizes that. And he has gotten help through therapy and he also fixed family counseling that they both went to for a while and still do. He has REALLY worked on himself.

But to no avail. And now they've divorced. :-/ So. Damn. Sad.

I am not angry with my brothers ex-wife. Not at all. I just find the whole thing very sad. And I worry about their kids to. They'll live every other week with my brother and then with their mom.

I am worried about her to. There is so much... things that she is doing strangely. She ain't fucking my brother over, don't worry. But there are other things that she does that ain't making sense. Sometimes I think she has... kinda lost herself, if you get what I mean? *shakes head*

My brother is absolutely heartbroken. They meet at school when they were both 16, and she is the love of my brothers life. Still is. And he loves his kids more then anything. He's a wonderful father all around. So this has really broken him down.

He is slowly dealing with everything that comes with a divorce, and we call each other several times a week.

The strange thing is, before all this? Me and my brother called each other about once a month. We talked about an hour when we did, but that was about it. So despite all the sad, I am... in a way... happy we've grown closer to each other again. He says I am his big support right now, despite living 2 hours away from him. I am happy I can be there for him, I really am. He is my baby brother, and I do hope he'll live through this and come out stronger on the other side.

Tough times indeed. At moments like these I am glad I got my fathers patience and steady temper and my mothers stubbornness and strength and both their bluntness and honesty. Seriously. My parents rocked/rocks.

Just had to get that off my chest... :-P

This entry is crossposted between LJ and DW. Comment where you are comfortable.
[livejournal.com profile] peting73 is off work this week since he has his birthday tomorrow (14th) so he is home with me and Alexandra. :-) It is wonderful getting some help with her and such. Not to mention just to have him home and him BEING there is great.

Tomorrow it is me making dinner, since he has his birthday and all. :-)

He has looked forward to this week to, since he has decided to come with me and Alexandra to the few activities we do during the week. He is very very involved with Alexandra, and we share as much as possible when it comes to caring for her. Didn't plan that, it just happened and worked for us.

Anyhow!

So today was the third meeting of that parenting group that I am sure I've mentioned... And dude... DUDE!

It's not so much the pink brigade thing that really starts to bother me, oh no...

It's one of the moms...

See, I got bad vibes from her at the first meeting. And she just keeps proving me right.

She is a bully and a know-it-all. I'll call her Bitch-mom. All the babies in the parenting group are the same age, sorta. Born from late July to early September. So is hers, but this is her third child. Off all off us it is her that has older kids, and one other mom that has one kid earlier. The rest of us, 6 more moms (including me), are first time mothers.

And EVERY SINGLE TIME, she has to point this out. That it is her third kid, so OF COURSE she knows what to do and how to do and OF COURSE she is right! And today really took the cake.

See, there's another mom coming to join us in the group, but she couldn't today, and since she got our emails she sent an email to tell us so (very nice of her!). I replyed all and Bitch-moms email showed as not working. OK, so I figued I'd ask her if I'd gotten it wrongly.

So I did today. She hardly acknowledged my existence, so I had to ask more then once... And before leaving today, I figured I'd aks the other moms what kind of baby carrier they use, since I haven't been that happy with my Baby Björn one and have done some internet-research... I am a internet-geek, so of coure I turn to the internet to do research... which she promptly shot down saying that doing that is stupid and one shouldn't trust everything one reads anyway, you know... Promptly hinting at me being an idiot, because you know... I have to be, not being a "normal" mom... Woman, I am not the only one wearing nail polish, but I guess since you have a french manicure done in a salon! Not to mention you buy new prams for all your kids and new toys and pretty clothes and go to pilates with your kids and....

GAH!

And the interesting thing is, the other moms? They just nod and agree and think she is the best thing ever on the planet and everything she says is gold... Typical yes-sayers... Except one. But she is just like me, sitting there since we sorta have to.

[livejournal.com profile] peting73s reaction when leaving: "Why hasn't anyone told her to shut the fuck up already? I am sorry you have to go there..." and gave me a hug. X-D

Oh well... Next meeting as at the lil library where I've worked the most and where I know all the librarians and they really like me... So fuck you! GAH!

Not many more meetings with this group, thankfully... The idea with these parenting groups at the Child Welfare Centers are that you are supposed to get connections so that you get to know other moms and your kids can play with one another as they grow up...

Yeah... No... Like that's ever going to happen...

We go to another activity, me and Alexandra, called Öppna Förskolan/Open Preschool where they have activites for kids 0-5 years old. :-) They even have special hours for kids 0-1 years old, so that's the time we usually go. I bet Alexandra and me will meet MUCH nicer parents and kids there... Just saying. :-P

Talking about kids...

How EPIC ain't this Halloween costume?!?!!! Geek-parent alert! :-D


"I WILL kick your ass! With cuteness..." (Clickable for slightly bigger...)

This entry is crossposted between LJ and DW. Comment where you are comfortable.
Feeling better today. :-) Thanx for the comments. It gave me the push I needed, really.

Have written an apologizing AND explaining message... and I think we're good. I didn't lose a friend, thank gawd. Phew... *wipes forehead* I would have hated to lose a friend over something stupid. Sure, if there is a serious disagreement or such, then de-friending and all that is the road to go. But when there was just... misunderstandings and other stupid shit. Then yeah... I would hate to lose a friend over that.

If I have ever friended you, I do it because I like YOU. And have an interest in YOU. So yeah. :- ) Just pointing that out to those I've friended.

So I haven't done much today at all. I've been playing World of Warcraft mostly. Some day I seriously need to make a post about the story I wrote for my two characters... I am sure a lot of people will be able to pick up where I got my inspiration. ;-) Got to play a little with my workmate that I've told about which was AWESOME! Now I am even more excited about getting my two boys up to maximum level at 85!!! Got both of them to level 68 today, so progress! MUCH progress! *happy about this*

Right. Think I'll go write a 100-things-post... Since I am feeling much better today. Time for a fanfic now, right? *ponders on which fandom*

Sadness...

May. 10th, 2012 01:07 am
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At the moment... I feel really sick to my stomach. I've not mentioned it, but there are... people on my flist who are hurting. Bad. More then one. And I fear it is my fault. I don't know. I honestly don't know. And I don't know what to do about it. :-/

I want to be able to express my opinion. But I don't want to hurt friends. Apparently I have. And I feel like SHIT! Geezes... I don't know what to do. I feel so helpless...

*holds head in hands*

I just... don't know what to do.... *sighs heavily*
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