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KSena

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This is KSena

Usually a friendly sort. Be nice to me, and I am nice to you. Here I ramble on about me, life, work and fandoms. I am a fan of Robin of Sherwood, Xena: Warrior Princess, Buffy: the Vampire Slayer, Pirates of the Caribbean, Tokio Hotel and Sons of Anarchy. I don't apologize for anything I write here. This is my mind. And you entered it. Welcome.

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You know… Sometimes I wonder what is wrong with me. Or if it’s not something wrong with me. Not sure. I just know the only thing I have energy for is watching TV-shows on Netflix and playing World of Warcraft.

And hey ho, with that comes guilt. Because before I was online chatting with friends to. And now I have no energy for that. :-/ So I’ve lost touch with [personal profile] snowstormskies and Duodeathstar. They both probably hate me right now, since I never log in. And if I do log in, I’d have to explain why I’ve been absent. And I have no explanation. More than lack of energy, and how does that sound?

Maybe I should write emails with them instead? Hmm… I’ll think on that for a bit.

It’s been a lot of fun to go back to WoW though! So relaxing! Started a new character to be a support to Alexandra's worgen druid. Yeah, she’s playing to. Although not on her own, Peting is doing the actual playing, but Alexandra is in charge of what her character should do. He is reading, translating, the quests and asks her if they should help the quest-giver or not. And where to go and so on and so forth. So it’s a feral druid, since she likes her character to be a cat as much as possible and that her character can claw the butt on her enemies. *LOL* So I made a priest so when she ends up in higher levels (far, FAR in the future), she’ll have a pocket-healer to keep her alive. :-)

The family that WoW’s together *cough*

Apart from playing WoW, I’ve also started to go through my long list I’ve made on Netflix with interesting TV-shows. And I also have a couple of YouTube channels that I follow.

And when I game, I listen to a couple of various podcasts, mostly in swedish, but also in english.

I really should make a list of this, shouldn’t I? I’ve listened to a few books as well. I’ve not really done that before, but there were two books that A LOT of the teens/kids at my school wanted to read, so I wanted to know what the hell it was all about, you know? But being too stressed out to sit down and read a book, I listened to them instead. And now I’m getting into listening to books that way. I’ve missed reading books, reading stories, so it’s nice to get into that again.

And then there’s some of my friends. First off, this can be a little bit triggering. And definitely very important note… I AM NOT BLAMING ANYONE!!! NOT AT ALL!!!

But I have a couple of friends on Twitter that are suicidal. And I’ve always been supportive. Always, always. It’s what I do. It’s who I am. It’s the core of who I am. A helper, a supporter, a rock, a steady tree with my roots deep in the soil where others can find shade and support. That’s me.

But lately I’ve been tiring. And I’m feeling so guilty about that to, it’s like I turn my back on who I am. But I just… can’t give the support I used to anymore. It’s why I’ve pulled back more, you could say. Here on LJ it’s easier, somehow. Somewhat on Twitter to, and Instagram. In chatt? Nope. I look at my chat program, and I just… can’t logg in right now.

So I’m sorry if I’m not a good supporter right now, everyone. I really and honestly am.

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Since I was out being drunk with my colleagues yesterday (yes, librarians do get drunk sometimes and it's quite hilarious...), I figured I'd answer the two questions I got for the fandom meme. :-)

If anyone else wants to add a question, please do so HERE!

[livejournal.com profile] gajastar asked me this: 15, any fandom., meaning: 15. Most loathed character. EVER.

OK. Now THAT is a hard question to answer!!!

I have a lot in World of Warcraft, actually. But that's because the lore and history for that game is SO VAST, there's bound to be characters that are badly written there. Interestingly enough, most of those are on the Alliance side. Ever since the game was released it seems as if Blizzard has a love for the Horde.

In the Xena-fandom there's the character Joxer. Now, I wouldn't say I loath him. I actually enjoy him sometimes. And the fandom as a whole had so So SO much hate for this character, that the actor, Ted Raimi, stopped doing interviews and stopped being online or anything like that. HE liked playing Joxer, but the fans really really hated that character. I find him annoying at most at times, but I always thought he got more hate than he deserved, to be honest. In some episodes though he really really just destroys the storyline, and I hate that. While in others, he really saves it. So he is a troublesome character. Deserves more cred though.

I do LOATH however how they portrayed the Norse gods in Xena though!!! I did not expect accuracy. Hell no. The best part with Xena is how that series doesn't take anything seriously. But at least they could have stuck to the basics with them gods? Please? *sigh*

In Pirates of the Caribbean it's Syrena the mermaid and Phillip. OMG, I was SO ANNOYED WITH THEM!!! And they were supposed to be the main love-interest in the fourth movie. ARGH!!! I have so many feelings about that movie over all. But, yeah. I was bored and so annoyed as soon as I saw them on screen. The concept of the mermaids in that movie was totally cool. So I wonder why Syrena was such SUCH a roll over little weakling, when the others were downright monsters... *shakes head* Plot hole big enough for a damn truck! And Philip? Not any more interesting than a wet washcloth. For serious.

In Buffy there's a lot of bad guys that are supposed to be oh so scary, but... they don't really DO anything. The Master for instance. And The Anointed One. You're supposed to be this big bad. Supposed to be this big threat that the Slayer has to defeat. Well... BE SCARY THEN!!!

Also. The Buffy-bot. I never really liked that whole storyline. That was just to let Spike get his damn rocks off. :-P Sorry to those that liked her. The idea and the whole storyline that season was totally cool. But yeah, no. Buffy-bot? Do not like her.

The character from Sons of Anarchy that I both hate and love is Gemma Teller. She is really really good in the first few seasons, but is really overused in the last seasons, which is really annoying. She should have meet Mr Mayhem aka been killed WAY earlier! The shit she pulled during the show had other full patched members killed and/or tortured. I mean, seirously. In the show it might be because she'd been married to two presidents and the mother of one. But STILL! That's some shit she pulls. And how she tangles herself up in some serious webs of lies. Yeah, no. If I loath any character in SoA, it's Gemma Teller.

In Game of Thrones, it was hard to pick. Because even the bad guys and good guys work in a grey area. But the character that was mostly overused here and that annoyed me was Ramsey Bolton. I get the use he had for the story, but for serious. He was mostly used for torture-porn. Really. Especially in Season Three, where all he does is torture Theon and then Sansa. And you get to see it all. Yeah, OK. I'm a darkfic fan as much as anyone, but I did not need to see all of that, thanks. Rape, torture, cutting off of body-parts. He does it all. With a smile on his face.

There's a lot of fucked up characters in Game of Thrones and I rather like them all, but Ramsey Bolton really pushes it for me. Gladly though he gets it in the end. Which was very satisfying to see, fucked up as it might seem, considering how he got to go. X-D

The good guy that I really find so boring on the show that it borders on loathing is Jon Snow. He is just to much of a good guy, to clueless and to self-sacrificing and just... To much for me. I really really dislike him without even being able to pinpoint why. :-P

So apparently I could answer that. X-D

Right on, onwards to the next one. :-)

[livejournal.com profile] hexenhasel wanted #7 :). Meaning: 7. Top 3 Favorite books.

Because of course. Because I'm a librarian. X-D *lol* Right on. Let's see.

One of my absolute favorites all time is: Ronia - The Robbers daughter by Astrid Lindgren. Now, I've re-read this SO MANY TIMES, I've lost count. I love many of Astrid Lindgrens books, some more than others. She really was a master at writing kid/tween books, with things in them that would go over the head of the younger audience, but as an adult you really catch on what is really going on between the lines... Which is totally cool! So yeah, that would be my top favorite one. :-)

A book that touched me, that I didn't think would, is Dewey: The Small-Town Library Cat Who Touched the World. Ho boy! I was crying and sniffling making my way through this book. It's a couple of years ago I read this book, but I still remember it clearly as if I read it just now. It's an amazing book! An amazing life! One small life that changed the lifes of so many. I adored this whole story and I adored Dewey and I wish I could have meet him. Or that I could have had a cat in the library I work at. *sigh* Cats over all needs more cred for the work they do and the lives they change.

A third book that I guess have to go to my favorite list is The Heroin Diaries: A Year In The Life Of A Shattered Rock Star by Nikki Sixx. I do have a thing for rockstar biographies, but this one? Is oh so very different. Apparently Nikki kept diaries while he was at the most deep into his heroin addiction. Or drug-addiction, maybe I should say. Because we're not only talking heroin here.

And Nikki is BRUTALLY honest in this book. Not holding any punches at all. 80% or so of the book is pretty much pages straight out of his diary. Including insane scribbles, paranoia, cravings, drawings... the works. He has added explanations all over the place for the book and there's commentaries from friends and relatives as well thrown in, which gives the insane diary scribbles a sense of time and you get what is going on and why he for example felt the need for MORE drugs at certain points during that time. So you don't really read this book like a normal book. And to be honest, this is not a normal book. It's a fucking punch to the gut. And after wards, I say thank you and ask for another one. EVERYONE should read this book! REALLY!

Bonus, my favorite graphic novel: Maus. Wow. This one is also one that really gives you a punch to the gut. The art is fucking amazing. And the story, how a young comic-artist start question his elderly father about his experiences during World War II and the camps, and said father starts telling his story... It's just... amazing. I have no other words for it. This graphic novel won the Pulitzer prize. To say it was well deserved is an understatement.


So yeah, that was those answers. :-) Let's see if I'll get some more or not?

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I don't know what it has been with this particular day, but it has absolutely sucked.

I woke up in a pretty good time, when Peting and kiddo got ready for daycare and all, but it didn't matter. I had grand plans, but I got nothing done. I was supposed to start up getting some shit added to Tradera, but... no.

Seems as I turn into a lazy shit when I'm on sick leave.

And my World of Warcraft is not working either! The lag I got is ridiculous. It's not even playable the way it's been acting. I've finally gotten back into the one and only game I play and that I absolutely adore... and that happens. :-/ I think it's partly my computer about to give up it's ghost. Not soon, I can do everything else on it, no problem. But no Warcraft. This makes me a sad KSena. Peting figured a solution for the time being this evening, but who knows how long that will last? Fingers crossed until summer at least. I am so getting myself a new computer as a birthday present to myself. :-P

Talking about Peting, he has been in a horrible mood today. I know it's tough on him, since has to carry a heavier workload around the house, because I plain can't. It takes time for a leg to heal. And I can't walk properly yet. It doesn't matter though, it still makes me feel so fucking guilty.

Triggerwarning, about suicidal friend )

Kiddo was coughing really badly last night so neither of us got a good nights sleep in the household either, which does it's works to, I'm sure. Not on kiddo though, she's been all sunshine all day. Kids are weird.

And it's just been a bit much today. And I'm just done. I'm a supporting person. I am. Just, who supports me, you know?

I had a run of really good days, where I've enjoyed being on sick leave, and Peting has been in a moderately good mood, but today has just been bad.

Tomorrow mom is coming over to help us out a bit. Thank gawd. I'm almost 40 years old, but I swear I'll never be to old to need my mom. Seriously. I need my mothers hugs right now. *sigh*

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It happened...

Jan. 3rd, 2017 11:35 pm
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I logged in here. Again. Geezes... It's been ages.

Well, maybe not ages, but damn girl. I've never not written anything here for this long. (Weird sentance is weird.)

And as I sit here writing I can feel how good it feels.

Note right away: I will NOT read up on anything I have missed! If you feel I need to know something, tell me!
And I've cleaned out my friends list some more, because man oh man... If I can't remember who you were or why I friended you, I'm sorry... You're still free to stay if you wish.

Anyway.

I broke my leg. Again. The same leg I broke two years ago. But not at the same place. But at two (!) other places. FML. :-/

So that was fun. Not. And just when I'd really gotten into my job to. Like, I knew what I was doing, I had plans, I kept busy all day, the teachers liked me, the kids liked me, even the hooligans at that school liked me (even if they didn't respect me at all times). And now I'm on sick leave for 3 months and have to work up all those relationships again. Blah.

I also had an infection in my leg that did not feel very good, no. :-/ It felt like the leg was going to burst, basically. But at least I've had antibiotics for that and it's gone now. Took my stitches from the surgery out today and the nurses that did so did show some concern over the colour on my leg though, so I'll go in for another checkup just to be sure. I hope it's nothing. I don't want to be on more sick leave than I have to.

Reason I miss my job is that I really feel like I'm doing something good there. Like I belong in that troubled school and with those kids. A school library might not be able to do much, but it can do SOMETHING. And me not exactly being the normal librarian, I guess that is in my favor to. Hell, I've even had fanfic classes! X-D

So now I'm bored at home, so I figured in between playing World of Warcraft, roleplaying, Instagram, Twitter, Plurk and following my favorite YouTube channels, I could start post again. Why not? It usually clears my head putting down my life in words, so it's mostly for me. I am just opening up my mind to anyone else to see to. :-)

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Letter-meme

Mar. 16th, 2016 11:23 pm
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I got dragged into a meme. Ho boy... I haven't done anything like these in an age and a half. Here goes...

So for this you're supposed to answer these question with words using a certain letter. And I got the letter W from [livejournal.com profile] velvetwhip.

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W.

WFT? Do you guys know how RARE W is in swedish and how bad I am at finding words for that one? Crap. OK. Here goes.

Something I hate: Oh gawd... I don't know.... W... W... W... WAR! Well, of course. Anyone with half a brain hates war. Or so I hope...

Something I love: Work, actually. That one was easy. I do like my work as a school-librarian despite the crazy ass kids. I thrive in chaos, apparently.

Somewhere I've been: West Point. Yes, that school. I was invited to a trip by my host-family to see the ArmyVSNavy football game when I was working as an aupair in the US. Was... quite interesting, to say the least. At least the buildings is down right breath-taking....

Somewhere I'd like to go: I have no idea. I'm sure there's a city starting with W in Australia, in Japan and in the US (Washington DC...), because I'd love to visit all three of them countries.

Someone I know: I can not think of anyone I know very well starting with W. I do have a few people on my f-list though, but we don't talk overly much anymore. If you are into the Buffy-fandom though and like Spike, I do suggest checking out the works of [livejournal.com profile] whichclothes.

A film I like: Walk the line was a movie I did enjoy quite a great deal, to my surprise. Didn't know much about Johnny Cash before watching it. And then there's Wreck it Ralph for the nerd in us (didn't think about that one right away since it's called Röjar-Ralf in swedish...). World of Warcraft hasn't started in the theaters yet, not until June 2016. I can not WAIT to see it though!

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW HARD THIS WAS?!?!? Geezes... I now downright dislike W. :-P

If anyone else dares wants to play, let me know and I'll give you a letter.

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