KSena's Journal

So.... I had a bit of a breakdown this week. There's just so much going on right before Christmas... And then there's Christmas right after that. :-P

And then there's the fact with our working hours... I work, officially, from 8am to 4:30pm. Peting works from 6am to 15pm (and sneaks off a bit earlier on Fridays...).

Add to that, that I have two bussrides that takes 30-40 mins what with waiting times when I change busses...

All in all it makes sure I feel constant guilt for coming home so late, around 5pm or a little bit after. Alexandra goes to bed at 7pm... So I see her for two hours every afternoon during workdays. If I'm lucky. So it's no wonder I feel constantly guilty over it. :-/

Work? Oh yeah, work... So so so much to do. It's crazy how short the school term is during the autumn. From August to December. Sounds long? It's not. It's really really not. :-P

Next week it's the one week the school is off for the kids and teens during the autumn. I had planned to get more done at work before next week, but alas. I did the minimum of what I needed to get done though. *shrug*

I will though have A LOT of fun next week! Because while the kids and teens relax or make mischief, I will go on a ghost-tour!

Last year I turned one of the rooms in the basement in the closest library in to a haunted room. And was in there... haunting. X-D As a ghost, using the theatre makeup I use when LARPing and crazy contacts. It was a SUCCESS!

So this year I got asked by more libraries to do the same thing with them!

Meaning the whole next week... I'll get to dress up and scare kids... During working hours! WIN-WIN!!!


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Onwards to some real life updates and stuff, because well... why not? It's what I do, what I use this journal for. To get stuff off my chest, good or bad. And if anyone reads, than that's fine to. :-)

Last weekend not so much happened, but the weekend before that me and Alexandra went by TRAIN to visit my brother and his kids.

Alexandra had never been on a train before that. To say she was existed would be... a bit of an understatement. To say the least. She did great though, and it ended up being a great experience. Now though she keeps nagging us that she wants to do it again. X-D

We also went to the big public pool and spa and sporting arean called... Arenan. Yeah, well. The public pool part of the house is AMAZING!!! Seriously amazing! :-D It was smaller and not that much to call home about when I was a kid, but since they renovated that place, it has ended up really amazing. So we had a really good time there me and my brother with our kids. Alexandra was extatic since she loves going to public pools AND hanging around with her cousins.

After that we went home to my brother and made his specialty for supper... Meatball pizza. X-D Kids loved it, and after that they just hang around watching TV, since they were so tired, so it was easy getting them IN bed. Harder to get them to sleep since they were so happy to have a sleepover together... Cousins... *LOL*

Once they fell asleep, me and my brother tried some strong liquer and baked a cake, cookies, muffins and spongecake... Because the day after that my brother had his birthday party!

YES! My little brother turned 36 years old! YAY!!!!

And Peting came as well, of course, and after the birthday party we just went home and collapsed.

It was a GREAT weekend, and I have to agree with Alexandra there... We HAVE to do that again! :-D

After that it's been work, work, work... daycare, daycare, daycare... Split up with visits to the stable.

Yes, I haven't mentioned that, have I? Alexandra, my dear darling daughter, who has nagged us about horses and wanting to start riding has finally started to do just that. I think she started to beg about it when she was around 3 years old. Thanks to her cousin being a seriously horsecrazy girl, and still is.

So every Saturday we go to the riding school, and she has about a 45 mins riding lesson. Alexandra is VERY shy around new people that she doesn't know, to the point of it being almost annoying. But at the riding school, I guess there's HORSES!!! So who has time to be shy then? *lol*

Last weekend and this week though has been less fun. Night between Thursday and Friday Alexandra started coughing. And coughing and coughing and coughing and coughing... All night long. So I stayed home with her during Friday. While she kept coughing. Alexandra had croup as a baby, so as soon as she starts coughing... she is REALLY COUGHING!!! So we spent Friday in the cough watching weird cartoons. Moderately enjoyable, until...

My ear started to hurt and feel weird... And as soon as something effect my ears, my tinnitus goes high wire and is getting REALLY NOISY!!! I usually don't notice it, but yeah...

Alexandra stopped coughing during the weekend, but my ear and also the other other ear just kept getting worse. The noise going louder, and I started to be hard of hearing. Worse and worse...

Worked Monday, since my schedule was SMACKED FULL! Managed being bought supper in the evening by my workmates since I'd had my 40th birthday this year. And, during my workday, looking good while being photographed for the yearly school catalog where there's photos of all the classes in the school and all the staff. :-)

And I managed a visit to the nurses office/care center as well! Where I got medication that you drop directly into your ear, so I started doing that right away!

Tuesday, worked my gruling ten hour day, and felt worse and worse, my hearing got worse and worse, and it was a pain in the ass to try to hear what the patrons in the regular library was saying...

So, Wednesday onwards I've been at home. I rarely call in sick, since I'm the only librarian at the school, and they rarely very rarely take in substitutes for me, since it's not easy being a sub for me since I have everything in my head... :-P

Unfortunally though my ears haven't improved. Instead it feels like they've gotten worse. :-/ And of course Alexandra got sick as well Tuesday running a high fever. Today though she was perfectly fine, so she's going back to daycare tomorrow. Today she's pulled me down and talked straight into my ear. And I had a hard time hearing her despite that. :-( I feel horrible about it.

Plan for tomorrow is to someone get to the nurses office/care centre to get more help, because I can't be on sick leave any longer!!! Besides, I'D LIKE TO BE ABLE TO HEAR WHAT PEOPLE ARE SAYING TO ME, THANKS!!!!


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If you remember I didn't do that good before Midsummer. And in the end, that might have been a blessing in disguise. Which sounds weird as fuck, but hear me out here.

I was still down and a bit out of it during packing in the morning, to the point I almost pissed Peting off, because he figured I could try to see something good with the trip. And I did!! I did! Meeting my huge insane extended family is GOLD! It was what kept me going, to meet them all at my aunts as she holds her annual Midsummer party the day before Midsummer Eve.

So, once we packed (which actually went surprisingly well... very surprising!), we were on our way to meet up with my aunt and her family. One of my cousins are still globetrotting, which she's done for years, but her two siblings would be there. Those three cousins are the closest to me of all my relatives. We grew up as siblings almost, since our mothers are so close.

We hung out with my aunts husband (totally awesome!) and one of my cousins until my aunt got off work. Then we just hung out, talked and helped her. Alexandra charmed everyone that saw her, as par usual, even if she was very shy at first. Also normal. Peting left early, since he had an 8 hour drive to do from my aunts to his friend further north in the country.

Which is part of what stressed me out and left me feel totally out if it. Because now we're basically dumped at my aunts. I didn't know when my mom was going to show, and I knew she just wanted us to drive her to the next party with her gentleman caller and then we'd be abandoned at her home for Midsummer Eve. Just me and Alexandra. By ourselves. During a holiday usually celebrated with family. (Unless you are a teen or of drinking age, then you just get drunk.)

Either way, it felt really depressing and stressful. My aunt hugged me lots and kept saying her sister was insane that she didn't want to hang out with me and Alexandra on Midsummer Eve when we so rarely get to go to visit her.

A bit past 8pm Alexandra was starting to whine that she was tired and wanted to leave and go to bed. She was being very good and had stayed up more than an hour past her normal bedtime, so totally understandable. I had a ton of packing, so I asked my aunt, cousin and some more relatives to help me carry my stuff to mom's car, since she'd arrived an hour or so earlier.

And then it started. How I was supposed to drive her and her gentleman caller here and there BEFORE I could go home to moms and put me and Alexandra to bed and the things there was in the fridge for us to eat, classical Midsummer food, and this and that and I just...

I lost it a bit. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I did. So mom and aunt and one of my second cousins (that I adore) saw and heard.

Everyone hugged me and helped me and all was good. I drove off, just me and Alexandra. She was sooo tired, but was doing good and even though I said she could sleep in the car, she didn't. The phone went off twice during the drive, but I couldn't answer and drive at the same time during the evening, so I figured I'd see who it was once Alexandra was in bed.

She did great, went to bed at mom's feel asleep and all, after almost an hour (!), but that was expected when not being in her own bed.

Checking my phone while unpacking the car (headphones is the shit), it was mom that had called and texted me. She was upset I was upset and all... and when I called her she said she'd cancelled her plans with her gentleman caller so she could be with me and Alexandra.

I felt bad about that, guilty that she cancelled her plans. I had her car, but some relatives drove her home. We hugged and talked and it was all good.

We ended up having a GREAT Midsummer Eve! Probably the best one I've had in a couple of years. Ever since Peting started to go visiting his friend by himself, I'd say. I kept feeling guilty about ruining mom's plans, but it faded eventually.

My aunt and her husband came over to, and we had SUCH a good time! We really really did! Mom told me she had such a great time to, and I believe her! I could tell she wasn't just saying that.

We ended up staying with mom for a whole week! :-D Midsummer Eve and Midsummer Day just me and Alexandra. Peting joined us late late Midsummer Day. The day after that my brother dropped off his kids, and they stayed there as well for the rest of the week. FULL HOUSE! *LOL* It was great. :-D It really was. Alexandra had a blast the whole time. There was much giggling to be heard every night when them three kids was going to sleep. *LOL*

And I managed to relax to! Me, who am always stressing over one thing or another managed to STOP doing that and just... relax and hanging out with the kids. It was GREAT!

We took it easy at mom's, went to the public pool, cooked and baked together... It was WONDERFUL! I could see mom had a blast to being surrounded by all three of her grandkids at the same time, which is pretty rare.

So that whole trip ended up amazing, even if it had a very rocky start. :-)

On Sunday snowstormskies is coming here for her, by this point, annual visit! I think it's the fourth time she visits, unless I've lost count. *lol* We don't have any huge plans. Just to hang out, visit mom and go to Karlsborg's fortress. Going to be nice, I think! :-D

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