KSena's Journal

DAY FOUR: a photo of you taken over ten years ago

Oh, heaven help me... I had to dig deep in the confines of my computer to find this. I'm amazed I have such an old photo on a file even. This is probably right after I was in the USA. I was in the US from 1996 to 1997. So after that. I can pinpoint it since the bracelet tattoo looks very very new, and I had that made shortly after I'd been in the USA. So at least more than ten years, I'd say. At a friends apartment back then. A friend I don't hang out with any longer. :-P And no, I didn't use makeup back then. :-P


(If you for some obscure reason want to click this for bigger, you can...)

Also, if you end up becoming a mom, you're hair thins out. Nice knowing that, eh?

DAY FIVE: a letter to your crush

Dear crushes I had in school. I wonder sometimes if you even knew I existed? Apart from someone to push around and bully? Did you even notice that I never really minded that you did? That any attention from you was good? I wonder sometimes what happened to you. You guys were the stars of the school. Most girls had crushes on you at times. Some of you were the bad boys, and I know one of you have ended up in jail once. For raping a disabled girl, no less. Horrible a crime, and I can't help but wonder how you ended up there? You were one of the few that actually talked to me. That acted like a decent human being when we were in the school-bus together every morning and afternoon. As soon as your friends saw you though... Mask on, let's be a bad boy. And you? The other you that acted like a decent human being. You were the schools photo-model. I've seen you since. Only difference is a pair of glasses. You are still a gorgeous man, no longer a boy. I wonder how come you managed to resist the peer pressure and not bully me in school? Well, you didn't stand up for me either, but you never did anything to me. I doubt any of you noticed my crush... my hearts in my notebooks... How I took the school yearbook, found your photo and took a paper cutting out a hole for your face, so I could put it above the photo and just look at you? I wonder sometimes...

I am grateful though. Without all of you I wouldn't have found my true crush. Thank you, Peter. I didn't crush on you right away. No. You were a friend. A senior member of the Sexmasters* society. You were bold, loud and had the quirkiest humor I've ever heard. And... You didn't give a fuck what others thought. I loved that. Still do. So we became friends. You helped me A LOT when I ended up a full member of the Sexmasters society. I was swamped with work both for the society and for the university. And you and your friend helped me a lot. Apparently your friend figured out your crush on me before you did yourself... I am grateful for that to. A kiss against a wall... That was all it took. I've never crushed so hard or so fast on another person before! Like a lightning bolt! Gladly it had a happy ending and you ended up the love of my life. Thank you for staying with me. For surviving my quirks. And for being you.

/KSena


*still got nothing to do with sex, it's a sociaty in the Student Union that arranges parties for other students

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DAY TWO: make a bulleted list of everything that happened in your day

Woke up at around 5am and went to bathroom and started to get dressed and such... at 5:20am Alexandra woke up IN A MOOD! And kept up a temper tantrum for the rest of the morning. I didn't even manage to get breakfast and it was NOT easy to pack up my lunch and such... o.O

Went to the daycare center and dropped off Alexandra at around 6:50am. NOW she's in a great mood, damn kid...

Hurries to the buss that leaves at 7:05am, gets a great text from my little brother that puts a smile on my face for the rest of the morning.

Arrives at the hospital bus-station, goes to a fika-place that is open in the morning and buys a sandwich before walking through the entire hospital grounds to get to the school where I work. Arrives there at 7:40am.

Work, work, work... Moves books around, rearrange the library in the teeny tiny room where in. Says hi to kids that comes in the room. Kick kids out that try to wreck the room... (Really? Second day of school? Already? WTF???) Have a serious talk with colleague of his not so smart decisions when it comes to the move, meaning he'll work in another room. Rearrange the library some more. Check the internets. Rearrange the library. Check the internets. Rinse and repeat for the rest of the day. Having lunch in the middle of the day there somewhere. And finding our phone in a box. PROGRESS!

Leave work at 4:10pm. Thinking I'm late I rush through the hospital grounds to get to the bus-station by the hospital entrance. And discover that apparently I walked faster than I thought and had to wait for the bus for nearly 10mins! Shocking, since I usually walk quite slow... Good though, since I have to walk back and forth there for at least 2 years. :-P

Coming home and helping peting73 with laundry and then sitting down with Alexandra who is very whiney and cuddly and just want to cuddle in my lap. Not surprised what with her early morning...

Eating dinner and after that me and Alexandra are doing the dishes. For some obscure reason she LOVES doing the dishes... Weird kid.

Cuddle with Alexandra some more getting company Skuld the cat for a bit before it's time for Alexandras bath. However, she don't want no bath! She wants to shower with dad! Which is fine, so we did that instead.

Clean Alexandra, putting her in diaper and pajamas, she's even more whiny. Yep. Tired girl. peting73 fixes some gruel and me and Alexandra reads a book. Then she eats some gruel and we brush her teeth and then I put her to bed. It doesn't take long. She's REALLY tired.

Once Alexandra has fallen asleep I clean out the litterbox and take all the trash with me downstairs and throw away before I go down to the laundry room and take care of all the laundry, folding it to. Carrying everything up and puts it away where it should be, except Alexandra's clothes since they are in her room. Saving those for tomorrow.

That done, I take a shower, shaving where it's needed... Ehm... After that I put on moisturize and such and then get my pajamas on and fixes some tea... Maybe a snack if we have any? And take a seat in front of the computer for a few hours before I go to bed.


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