Not dead. Promise.

[kseenaa]

I am not dead. I have just felt... incredibly down lately. I haven't felt this down in a long long time. Can't even remember when last it happened.

I partly know a small part of the problem, but not all. I just... *sigh* There it is anyway. I am doing better lately, and slowly. And I feel incredibly guilty for not reading any of your LJ-posts that I follow. I am very very sorry about that.

Following a few swedish blogs who are some of the most honest and open blogs I've ever read, I think I should kick myself in the ass and post more. And really write how I feel. So what if no one reads or gives a damn. At least getting it down on words have always helped.

I am doing better though. But damn, this winter... It has not been good to me, that's for sure. I hope I'll do better come spring. *sigh*

Edit: I feel a clarification is needed. LJ has NOTHING to do with me feeling down. Nothing at all. In fact, it's thanx to the communities I run that I have a small smile on my face during the evenings. And my family and the LARP.

This entry is crossposted between LJ and DW. Comment where you are comfortable.

Comments

[zeph317toho.livejournal.com]

Oh, love, I'm so sorry you've been feeling so down. I wish I could give you a big hug and make it better. Don't even worry if you feel like you haven't been around--that happens to all of us when life goes nuts or leaves us without any energy or motivation. Just hang in there and keep finding the joy in the things you love. I hope you feel much better soon! *sends you all the love and hugs*

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

I wish I could everyone could give me hugs so I'd feel better. I really do. I wish I could help you to! *clings and hugs* Maybe we could send some strength and love to each other, eh? *HUGS*