And the insanity spreads...

[kseenaa]

I think I have just done something insane.... I have signed up to be a part of th_apexs new fanvid.... o.O At least I wont be the oldest in the vid. And I am only one of... I think 60 people? But still. Insane. I hope I can get spicehobbit to help film me with my camera... Hell, I don't even know if the thing works to record with! X-D An adventure to be sure... And I'll be singing along to THIS song, btw. Beginning, a few seconds in the middle and end. And it just happens to be my favorite from the new album. I have until August 6th, so no stress... Yet. ;-)

Well, I have never claimed to be sane. :-P

I have done a lot of cookies and cake baking today, and peting73 has been a darling making me his ever epic caloric punch cake that I filled with whipped cream and cloudberry jam mixed together... I swear to God, that cake is going to be orgasmic...

So tomorrow I'll celebrate my birthday, a day early as it were. Mom will come here and peting73s mom as well, of course. And my aunt with her husband! Been a long time ago they were here to visit, so thats going to be great. :-)

And then... on Monday (on my actual birthday) I am going to moms for a week... :-/ To repaint her house. I really, really don't wanna go. It is not that I don't love my mom. I do. So fucking much. But every time I go there I feel my self-confidence disappearing and I feel like I am not doing enough, no matter what.... and that I should be there.... etc, etc, etc... Basically I feel bad for having a life of my own. I know it is idiotic. I fucking know it! But I can't help feeling it still. Ugh. :-/

Oh well. Tomorrow I'll make sure to have a great time though!

Comments

[steinsgrrl.livejournal.com]

Haha! So cool you're doing that! I thought it sounded like fun but I'm WAY too shy to do it. It looks like it's going to be great, though. :D

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

I am usually not shy, but when it comes to be a TH fan, then I am shy and a bit ashamed of it to, since I am kinda old in comparison to them boys. :-P I know I am not the only elderly fan, but still. :-P But the last Apex vid was just so fucking awesome, I figured why the hell not? X-D

[camdizzle83.livejournal.com]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! I hope its amazing. :)

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU! I hope I'll have a great day to. :-D

[(Anonymous)]

Happy birthday sweetie :-D

I SO wanna see the video once it is done, go Ksena go! Fab idea :-)

I can relate to the not want to go home even if you love and wanna see your mum. I like going home to my parents house if I get to STAY in the house and not have to go into the villages close by. Just too many fucked up memories. And if you meet people from your past, very little has changed even if you can see that they are different today - If I saw my old bullies again I'd run a mile, I promise you... Even if I probably could punch them to the ground today... I still would be 13 years old and scared to death.
I have some good friends left back "home" though, and I try to think about them whenever the past haunts me.

And you know... if you ever run into trouble, the LARP-people would eat the bully alive :-D I mean I got a nice whip at home, some shibari rope and I know about a girl with tattoo equipment... Just give us a call, love!
*MWAH*

/Sofie

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

Once it is done, the vid will be posted here at my LJ. You can count on it. If I am to make a fool out of myself, I'll make sure people know it.... X-D Or something...

Yeah. Meeting people from your past should be forbidden gawd dammit. :-/ I wasn't one of those that ran away. I tried to make myself invisible and shrink away inside walls... Not an easy feat when your 6feet tall. :-/

Ah, the ever awesome LARP-people... :-D I love you all so damn much, you have no idea. Much of the self-confidence I have regained is thanx to the LARP and the friends I have gotten there. That includes you and that crazy man of yours. ;-) *hugs*