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KSena

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This is KSena

Usually a friendly sort. Be nice to me, and I am nice to you. Here I ramble on about me, life, work and fandoms. I am a fan of Robin of Sherwood, Xena: Warrior Princess, Buffy: the Vampire Slayer, Pirates of the Caribbean, Tokio Hotel and Sons of Anarchy. I don't apologize for anything I write here. This is my mind. And you entered it. Welcome.

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We haven't done much here after vacation and birthday. :-) We basiclly have a vacation from our vacation. X-D *lol*

I did go downtown today though. Took Alexandra with me. She loves going around in her pram looking at people and everything. It was nice. :-) We checked out a pretty new pizza-restaurant and I bought myself new shoes and a new bra. :-)

Running shoes. EXPENSIVE running shoes! O.o I bought them in a store where both orthopaedist and physiotherapists work to make sure you get the right shoe for you. [livejournal.com profile] peting73, his best friend Kiltfan and two friends from the LARP told me they might be expensive at that store, but damn... It is worth every krona to get a shoe there.

So I went there. Had to walk on a special treadmill where they could see HOW I walk (urgh.. I got to see, not pretty...) and what kind of shoes I needed. I figured I'd get shoes in some neon-colour, since that is the kind of running shoes I always see. I got to try two pairs on, and then walk on the weird treadmill again, twice with both shoes so he could see which ones would fit me better. And then he packed a pair up and paid.

They were black. X-D *laughs ass off* How very perfect. They got shoelaces neon-yellow, but still. Black for the goth! X-D

Expensive like FUCK though! 1500 krona = 217 USD... o.O And those were one of the cheaper running shoes there! Geezes...

The bra I bought in a underwear-store specialized in bras was crazy comfy keeping things from jiggling when running and not quite as expensive... 600 krona = 87 USD.

Anyway. I'll re-start my running-regime, Couch25K and hopefully with these shoes and this bra? It'll be a ton easier. :-) I am hopefull and very determined. :-)

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Couch to 5K!

Jun. 7th, 2013 11:26 pm
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Alright, next subject at hand...

I've been thinking about this a long, long time... But it has come to a head really lately.

I am so, SO unfit it ain't even funny... Our apartment is on the second floor here in this house, and I lose my breath everytime I carry Alexandra and the diaper bag with all the stuff... I am so out of breath it ain't even funny. And that's no good. Definitely not.

Alexandra might just be crawling, but soon she'll be running around. And she'll get heavier for me to carry when she is in a bad mood. And now? It doesn't feel like I could do it properly, not to mention not be able to keep up with her.

So when I was sitting at the computer the other night I followed a link... that lead to a site... found a link there that lead to a site... found a link there that lead to a site... You get the picture.

And ended up at the site called Couch to 5K.

I read and I watched vids and I read some more. And some more. Read the program to, and... Even though I don't think I can do it in 9 weeks as it says on the site, I think I can do it in 18 weeks, doing everything twice instead of once.

Exercise? Running? Me? Unbelievable.

Why is that? Well, since school I have failed every exercise I've tried. Why? Because even though I got my self confidence back in all other areas since I was badly bullied in school, I still have NO self confidence when it comes to exercise... I have this voice in my head telling me I look ridiculous, that people are laughing at me, that I'll fail, and I should just go home already... That would be my programmed reptile-brain. Programmed by my bullies all those years ago. And I have yet to change that programming. The bullying stopped when I was 16-17 years old. I am now 35. Crazy what bullying can do...

Anyway. I feel quite good about this. I've been doing this running thing twice now and... I feel confident. I am, of course, EXHAUSTED after everytime and have to sit down catching my breath and cough for a bit afterwards... Not to mention my left leg (that is a bit shorter) aches a lil by the knee when I am done... But not to bad! Don't worry, I will be careful! '

But... It feels like I can do this! Even if I do want to crawl out of my skin and go hide when anyone looks at me when I do try to run/jog/hobble along... It's scary and it is as much a mental exercise that it is a physically one.

I just hope I can conquer this... To reach the goal! Some cheering on would be appreciated. :-) It'll help me reach this goal!

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