I'm still reading! And I second (or seventh, by now) the idea that getting help is good. The "I have everything I want and my life still feels like nothing is good" sounds like an actual depression to me, and even if it's "only" a mild one, getting help will save you a lot of misery. (And getting help with Alexandra's sleeping wackiness will maybe get you out of the depression all by itself. If she sleeps, you can sleep, and that will help. I have recently realised how much of my own depressive tendencies that can be cured by the right amount of good sleep...And my psychologist/therapist/whatever-she'd-be-called-in-English says this is true for most people.)