At being a support-system... and Tumblr.

[kseenaa]

Jesus christ in a bucket.... *collapses*

I love you all, you know that right? If I have clicked with you, have conversations with you, comment on your posts... then you have sneaked your way into my heart. Just saying.

And right now? So, so many are broken... suffer... are pissed... whatever...

And me? I have a heart to huge for my own good. I really do. I just... hurt. Because I can't help you.

I am sitting here far away from you in Sweden. In my very nice apartment with my LOVELY hubby peting73 who loves me for the quirky me that is me. My career has just started to take off after all these years... I have a nice Masters Thesis diploma laying here somewhere. I have two cats to cuddle with when I need it. I have the best friend in the world, my sister in all but blood spicehobbit, not to mention my crazy brother and my crazy mom who really puts the Merry Widow to shame...

Still I hurt. For you. Because I just can't help you. Gawd, I wish I could. I have read up on my f-list today, and man... at times I have had tears in my eyes... I just want to reach out through the computer screen and pull you in. Give you a hug... and just the full KSena-threatment (ask spicehobbit about that sometime...)

I just want to help. And I can't. And just....

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH *growl*
*frustrated*

*sigh*

Yeah so...

Had to get that out. Just know I care. A whole fucking lot.

Right. And I made a Tumblr. To look at pretty pictures and vids, and repost them to. You can find it here if you want to see it: The confused mind of KSena. Gonna go add it to my side-bar now....

Comments

[shapinglight]

You're a sweetie.

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

Just a fool with to big a heart. :-P I just can't help it, it seems.

[lilliephoenix.livejournal.com]

1. i agree whole-hartedly with the first part.
2. beware the food blogs! they will make you hungry. ;-)

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

That my heart is to big for my own good? Well, I certainly agree with that. :-P

[lilliephoenix.livejournal.com]

no, that it sucks that my lj friends are having a hard time, and i wish i could do more.

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

Ah yes.... That to. *hugs*

[misswitch.livejournal.com]

Even though you can't do anything, we take comfort in just knowing you care. Sometimes that's all that gets us through. Knowing that somewhere, someone cares.

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

Yeah... I really really hope that helps. I just feel so helpless sometimes, you know? :-P

[em-rose483.livejournal.com]

you're the most wonderful person <3

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

*blush* Thank you.

[aatln.livejournal.com]

Now THAT is the sweetest post I've ever read!

I sometimes get down about life and then suddenly a post like this comes along and I start listing all the positives I have in my life and kick myself in the butt for ever being negative.

I guess everyone has something in their lives to make it difficult, some more than others, but it's the compassion and empathy of others that make life worth living.

Good people. They don't have to live next door, it's just nice to know they live somewhere :)

You are good people Ksena.

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

Awwww.... :-) Thank you! That was so, so nice of you to say. *blush* *hugs*

It is easy to only see the negative in your life, it really is. I could have listed shit instead. But what could would that do? Because seriously? The good WAY outweighs the bad. It always does. :-)

[ruchirahni.livejournal.com]

love you too!!!

no matter how hard things get, i think we're both lucky when it comes down to it... and seeing the words 'my career is finally taking off' males me SO happy.

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I try to remember that. :-) I really do. And if I have a bad day and forget how lucky I am? peting73 or spicehobbit are quick to remind me. :-)

And I am not sure if calling it a career is right, since I am only hired by the hour as it is... But I do get a lot of hours, and the other librarians I work with think I do a good job, so I suppose whatever you wanna call it... It goes in the right direction. :-)

[ruchirahni.livejournal.com]

yeah- hey, i still remember the days when places weren't even calling you to work.. i was LIVID!

[kseenaa.livejournal.com]

Well, there is A LOT of librarians in this city, so the market is kinda full... :-) That might have to do with it. ;-)