kseenaa: (Me Rainy day)
Work has been... hectic lately to put it mildly. I've probably said this before, but if someone comes over to me to say that it seems so calm to work in a library, I will punch them in the face. Seriously.

The school has started and with that the crazy planning for this term. When all the teachers wants to talk to me at the same time. And I'm supposed to book things with all the teachers to make sure I'll have time to visit all the classes I'm supposed to visit this term. Meaning, the sooner I start the better, but the teachers just wants me to wait and wait and wait... leaving me very little time. And will make the end of the school-term stressful as fuck. :-P

Fun times there, in other words.

On the other hand, I do like working at this school. Weird as that might sound. I like the kids and teens that come from so many different cultures. I like challanging them with LGBT picturebooks and books, considering what many gets feed regarding that at home. I like discussing with them a lot. I learn a lot. And I hope they learn something from me to. And the teachers and staff at that school is OUT OF THIS WORLD! So hard working and SO CARING! Not to mention a lot of fun to. :-D

I've been at a drinking party with these teachers... It was one of the more insane drinking parties I've been at. X-D

So even though I whine and tear my hairs out sometimes over both kids/teens at the school AND the teachers... I still love working there. :-) Funny, isn't it?

And in the end, I usually get my schedule to work out anyway. :-)

So there's that.

And my kiddo she's turned into quite the little horse girl! She goes to riding school now, every Saturday morning at 9:15 we have to be there and the class starts at 9:30. A pretty good time, I'd say.

She's had three lessons now. First one was more introduction. They learned the different body parts of a horse. That ponies were smaller than horses, but could still come in various sizes. Diffent parts of the equipment needed. What a horses needed to be healthy and happy... Things like that, but on a very simple level. The kids where between 4-6 years old. Alexandra is just 5 years old, but she was totally excited and listened carefully to her teacher!

The last two classes she's been on a horse. Last time with a saddle on and this time no saddle. She's been doing great! And the smile on her face first time she sat on a horse was PRICELESS!!!

She's so so so happy to take riding lessons! She really does love it and talks about it a lot! Sounds like she's learning things already and corrects me and Peting if we use the wrong word for something. (Already?) I'm so happy we were in a position were we could give her the chance to really explore this interest she has in horses. And the riding school we've found have been really wonderful so far. :-)

So even though the stress-factor at work is... a bit insane, life is still pretty good, I'd say. :-)

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kseenaa: (Tea loved)
If you remember I didn't do that good before Midsummer. And in the end, that might have been a blessing in disguise. Which sounds weird as fuck, but hear me out here.

I was still down and a bit out of it during packing in the morning, to the point I almost pissed Peting off, because he figured I could try to see something good with the trip. And I did!! I did! Meeting my huge insane extended family is GOLD! It was what kept me going, to meet them all at my aunts as she holds her annual Midsummer party the day before Midsummer Eve.

So, once we packed (which actually went surprisingly well... very surprising!), we were on our way to meet up with my aunt and her family. One of my cousins are still globetrotting, which she's done for years, but her two siblings would be there. Those three cousins are the closest to me of all my relatives. We grew up as siblings almost, since our mothers are so close.

We hung out with my aunts husband (totally awesome!) and one of my cousins until my aunt got off work. Then we just hung out, talked and helped her. Alexandra charmed everyone that saw her, as par usual, even if she was very shy at first. Also normal. Peting left early, since he had an 8 hour drive to do from my aunts to his friend further north in the country.

Which is part of what stressed me out and left me feel totally out if it. Because now we're basically dumped at my aunts. I didn't know when my mom was going to show, and I knew she just wanted us to drive her to the next party with her gentleman caller and then we'd be abandoned at her home for Midsummer Eve. Just me and Alexandra. By ourselves. During a holiday usually celebrated with family. (Unless you are a teen or of drinking age, then you just get drunk.)

Either way, it felt really depressing and stressful. My aunt hugged me lots and kept saying her sister was insane that she didn't want to hang out with me and Alexandra on Midsummer Eve when we so rarely get to go to visit her.

A bit past 8pm Alexandra was starting to whine that she was tired and wanted to leave and go to bed. She was being very good and had stayed up more than an hour past her normal bedtime, so totally understandable. I had a ton of packing, so I asked my aunt, cousin and some more relatives to help me carry my stuff to mom's car, since she'd arrived an hour or so earlier.

And then it started. How I was supposed to drive her and her gentleman caller here and there BEFORE I could go home to moms and put me and Alexandra to bed and the things there was in the fridge for us to eat, classical Midsummer food, and this and that and I just...

I lost it a bit. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I did. So mom and aunt and one of my second cousins (that I adore) saw and heard.

Everyone hugged me and helped me and all was good. I drove off, just me and Alexandra. She was sooo tired, but was doing good and even though I said she could sleep in the car, she didn't. The phone went off twice during the drive, but I couldn't answer and drive at the same time during the evening, so I figured I'd see who it was once Alexandra was in bed.

She did great, went to bed at mom's feel asleep and all, after almost an hour (!), but that was expected when not being in her own bed.

Checking my phone while unpacking the car (headphones is the shit), it was mom that had called and texted me. She was upset I was upset and all... and when I called her she said she'd cancelled her plans with her gentleman caller so she could be with me and Alexandra.

I felt bad about that, guilty that she cancelled her plans. I had her car, but some relatives drove her home. We hugged and talked and it was all good.

We ended up having a GREAT Midsummer Eve! Probably the best one I've had in a couple of years. Ever since Peting started to go visiting his friend by himself, I'd say. I kept feeling guilty about ruining mom's plans, but it faded eventually.

My aunt and her husband came over to, and we had SUCH a good time! We really really did! Mom told me she had such a great time to, and I believe her! I could tell she wasn't just saying that.

We ended up staying with mom for a whole week! :-D Midsummer Eve and Midsummer Day just me and Alexandra. Peting joined us late late Midsummer Day. The day after that my brother dropped off his kids, and they stayed there as well for the rest of the week. FULL HOUSE! *LOL* It was great. :-D It really was. Alexandra had a blast the whole time. There was much giggling to be heard every night when them three kids was going to sleep. *LOL*

And I managed to relax to! Me, who am always stressing over one thing or another managed to STOP doing that and just... relax and hanging out with the kids. It was GREAT!

We took it easy at mom's, went to the public pool, cooked and baked together... It was WONDERFUL! I could see mom had a blast to being surrounded by all three of her grandkids at the same time, which is pretty rare.

So that whole trip ended up amazing, even if it had a very rocky start. :-)

On Sunday [personal profile] snowstormskies is coming here for her, by this point, annual visit! I think it's the fourth time she visits, unless I've lost count. *lol* We don't have any huge plans. Just to hang out, visit mom and go to Karlsborg's fortress. Going to be nice, I think! :-D

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kseenaa: (GoT Sansa Looking Up)
Midsummer. Again. :-/ Ever since the disastrous trip to Peting friend a couple of years ago I feel really horrible during Midsummer. Which ALSO bums me out, because Midsummer used to be one of my favorites holidays during the year. :-/

*sigh*

Thing is, it has gotten even worse. Because since my mom meet her gentleman caller, she goes to parties with him on Midsummer. So... Me and Alexandra is pretty much dumped all alone at Mom's house during Midsummer.

Peting is going to his friend in the north this year to. And mom, well. She's going to two Midsummer parties with her gentleman caller, which makes me feel even more down. I mean, we're not able to go visit her that often, but still he goes first. :-/

If I'm jealous? A little, yeah. If we're there, why doesn't she want to hang out with us? When her gentleman caller is there, it's... I don't feel as comfortable. I don't know. It's odd. :-P

And I feel horribly guilty for saying that to. Because Mom seems to genuinely care and love him. *SIGH*

As you can clearly see I am not doing quite good right now. I hope I'll feel better shortly. I do have my vacation from work right now. Which doesn't mean I'll have it slow.

Oh no.
  • 22 - 28 June, Being at mom's and celebrating (ha!) Midsummer.


  • 2 - 6 July, [personal profile] snowstormskies are here visiting, which I'm SOOOO looking forward to!!!


  • 7 - 8 July, Astrid Lindgrens World Park with brother and his kids as well.


  • 10 - 12 July, Going to the coast and staying at a luxury hotel for two nights. Hopefully the weather will be nice...


  • 17 July, going back to work. So there's a lot of things going on. Fun things! I should be happy about it! It's just.... A lot. And then Midsummer... UGH. Next year I'll be renting a car, because that would take a load of the stress for me, to be quite honest.

Wish me luck tomorrow?

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kseenaa: (Scowl Dame Edna)
I don’t even know where to start. Safe to say… It’s the end of this school term. So everything is just… Insane! Meaning I’m constantly stressed the hell out. :-/

Had a meeting with my boss not that long ago, and I told her it doesn’t feel like I’m doing a good job this school term. Feels like I’m constantly failing. I want to do so much… But I feel as if I’m not enough. That I’d be able to do so much more if only…. :-P

My boss, bless her, bascilly told me I’m idiot but in much nicer terms when she came to visit me. I think she noticed that I’d probably had had it by now.

And I have. Because end of school term does not mean less work for me. Oh no! Then it’s time for…

The summer reading program!!!!

*dies* *SIGH* And in my school and the schools around here it’s called The Summerbookclub! Meaning, the kids have to read six books, report them in in a special folder, and when the school starts again after summer, they get a little FIKA party with something sweet to eat and a gift (usually book or something book-related).

All well and good. It’s just that all of that needs to be prepared. The folders need to be ordered. All of that. Preferabley some time ahead. That hasn’t happened this year. This year everything is planned and ordred with VERY little time to spare. No time to spare, to be honest. :-P

And it pisses me the fuck off. I don’t feel that good when such things happen. I need things to be preplanned before hand. So I know I have what I need before I present the whole thing for the kids at the school. This? Is to freaking stressful.

And it’s all well and good on my colleagues schools. They only have kids from the age if six to the age of twelve. I have about twice the amount of kids/teens at my school and they run from the age of six to the age of 15… A WEEE bit of difference there. :-P

Ugh. :-P

Anyone tells me it is a relaxed job to work as a school-librarian I’m going to punch in the face!

And to top it off, I found out about the bomb at the Ariana Grande concert in Manchester, UK. WTH?!?!?! I just… I got no words for that.

So if you follow me elsewhere, you have to excuse my low mood these days. Work and world, I tell you…

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kseenaa: (Tea dammit!)
To refurnish a library or not to refurnish a library....

It was somewhat chaotic in the library after my substitute had tried to take care of it. Especially in the corner with the corner settee. But I have now moved it, and the hooligans with their hangarounds that had decided that corner where it started out standing was theirs... Well, they have to think again. There's no furntiture in any corner now. Because if you're in a corner, you are out of the eyes of all the adults... Not a good thing in a library.

Now though the corner settee and another couch is standing in the middle of the lbirary. I have another couch as well, but I've had to put that one away for now. Fingers crossed I get it back out at somepoint in the future.

Because now the hooligans and their hangarounds are not that much in the library as they were before. Apparently it's not as 'fun' when your teachers and other adults see you and drag you to class. *cough* ;-)

It's still a bit loud and sometimes chaotic still, but it's a lot less now. So awesome!

All this chaos and the refurnishing and stll a bit of chaos... It's tiring, so when I get home I got no energy what so ever. :-P Which is a shame.

It doesn't help that we got a new bus-company in this town and they fucking fail. I'm so pissed off.

I used to be able to take another bus to work, that went another shorter way to the school I work and passed the hospital after that. Didn't go downtown to the city centre and the main bus station, but only went that shorter route. And that bus was only during the morning and during the afternoon, that is when people went to work and when people wanted to go home.

It was PERFECT! And it only took me 8 mins to go to and from work.

Now though? The new bus company decided that ALL buses has go through the main bus station down town... which means I'll have to change bus, go a longer way and it instead takes me 20-30 mins to go to work, depending on traffic...

I'm so pissed off about this, you have no idea. This means that I am late nearly every day, which also means I have to stay longer at work which in turn means less time with Alexandra and Peting...

I've called to complain to the bus company and been told I'm not the only one to do so but that they can't do anything. (Bullshit.) And now I'm working on a letter to the newspaper hoping it'll be printed IN the newspaper... Fingers crossed. Because it all just sucks. :-/

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KSena

This is KSena

Usually a friendly sort. Be nice to me, and I am nice to you. Here I ramble on about me, life, work and fandoms. I am a fan of Robin of Sherwood, Xena: Warrior Princess, Buffy: the Vampire Slayer, Pirates of the Caribbean, Tokio Hotel and Sons of Anarchy. I don't apologize for anything I write here. This is my mind. And you entered it. Welcome.

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